Backstabbed

Lyrics

Maybe if I die I'll turn into a goat [Hook: Mikayla Hamilton] I thought we could figure this out But then you go and you calm me down [Verse 1: Shaft] It's funny how you y'all left me for dead I'm been stuck in my head can't get out of my bed So I'm closer to living my dreams I know that everything's not what it seems Overthinking yeah that's typical me Asking what's wrong, I don't know what they mean Feels like I'm losing my grip and my hype I know that nothing happens overnight Hate being cold but it feels so right If you shot me down I would drip out ice That's a bar and half worth 25 to life Thought about ending it the other night With Lucy my grandma standing in the light How could I ever reach the height of favorites Without any patience With more dedication than anyone waiting To hop in the action "You think you gonna blow up with all of this rapping?" Look, I don't know but we'll see what happens Can't trust my circle cause people backstabbing Huh growing up is really the assassin My mouth wired shut from the writers block Like cottage crash, man this shit from love stuck in the past I've had enough, will I ever last? Or will I watch my whole world go and collapse? [Hook: Mikayla Hamilton] I thought we could figure this out But then you go and you calm me down Remember when you said you'd always be around Told me that you'd forever hold me down Guess we'll never figure this out [Verse 2: Shaft] Remember mom and dad would fight every day Thought that shit was normal, what can I say Each fight getting more worse than the last Don't want my future to be like my past Maybe that's why I always sound violent Coming from a home that felt like a riot I don't make my music just so you can buy it I make it so you can feel my lyrics, my spirit, my soul There's no telling how far I would go just to get to the top Scared I'll be stuck at the bottom and left here to rot So I've been switching my plot Back all hunch, from the weight of my shoulders Really sick of feeling dead even when I am sober Life is a high with no way to closure You wanted the real now the wait is over And I've been to hell and back one too many times One too many friends told one too many lies And it took too long for me to realize That they were never really on my side And I hate that cause I love them But I guess now it's fuck them Can't wake 'em up, they sleeping They need me, I don't need them [Hook: Mikayla Hamilton] I thought we could figure this out But then you go and you calm me down Remember when you said you'd always be around Told me that you'd forever hold me down Guess we'll never figure this out