Bad Day

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Verse You told me to stop, You told me to listen You told me to stop, the way I was living You said to talk to you I know that you're hot, I know I was distant I'm working a lot You always be bitching I showed my flaws to you Your phone was unlocked I got so suspicious It had me in shock Your words to some prick 'Cause he wrote some songs for you? You been to his spot You sent him some pictures So the day that y'all went to eat, I just showed up at the meeting Like, "What's up everybody!?" I was drunk and ignorant You had your mouth open, he looked like an idiot And then he tried to play real innocent Like, "We just friends, just homies, just kicking it..." "Word? How bout I kick you in your little d--k?" Patted on my waist like, "Do something!" He didn't flinch And you was crying like, "Not here." So we went home. You was still letting out tears Then you tried to say that I was really the blame for you hanging with this lame cause I was cheating for five years Huh? You ain't got no proof of that Then you started naming names, and it threw me back "So that's why you rolling with this doofy cat?" Then you told me that all I do is rap And you got mad All of a sudden like out of nowhere You showed me some flick of a chick like, "Who's this ho here?" I said, "I recognize the panties and the bra But the face got me stumped." Damn Why did I go there? Hands in my grill, wild swinging haymakers I busted you, how you gon' change places? Getting all mad, I tried to maintain you I had to straight shake you "Yo what the hell are you doing?" Then I asked about the dude, "what does he mean to you, what did y'all do? This is our fortress, did he break through? One wrong is bad, but tell me if there was...two?!" Then you looked to the ceiling... You can imagine my feeling There's no emotional healing that could fix what went on with my heart when you revealed That I was gone for a month and you felt like a dunce, cause he kept on trying to touch you and you always used to front But he treated you to lunch Then he treated you like dinner When y'all laid down once, I was screaming "What the f--k??.." I tried to come and hug you... You told me not to touch you... The way you said you hate me, it was coming from the soul like plug two There's potholes in my damn lawn He told my girl come home with him like Cam'ron You hit me with confessions of fire, I said you're lying, then you pushed me, you're mad strong The first time you ever put hands on me, and then again …And it happened so quick You called me a selfish bitch, and I caught you in the lips Open hand maybe ma it could have been a fist all I know is I was defending myself You caught a fit I never reacted violently Never saw this side of me Blame it on the liquor God I wish I had a time machine Take me back twenty-eight seconds and put my mind at ease Or make me disappear, make me run away, make me try to leave I was yelling sorry I told you I was drinking Things got a little foggy Girl I wasn't thinking I remember you saying, "You think you're a man? You wanna be tough, you wanna throw hands? Hit me again pussy Yea I cheated, yea he was hitting it, yea he was eating," Then you got graphic, you said something 'bout his mouth And I saw myself choking you out Where's God?... We about to make the news I thought this is what people deep in love do My father used to yell, my mother would scream too Throwing furniture, to hurt each other, I was left confused Turned me to a lonely kid Sometimes I would blame her, thought she kept provoking it And he had to tame her I ain't ever choke a chick Until right now… I backed up… I calmed down Damn, apologizing just sounds stupid Tried to put the blame on too much Chris Brown music Nah Girl I thought that we found Cupid He hit us with his arrow Lord your eye is on the sparrow So how did you not stop me from just flying off the handle? I was worried 'bout the booth But I got demons fighting battles, and they're winning I was spinning, now my mind is so unraveled Girl I hate the man I showed you, now I hope my show gets canceled, like, it's like I know you wanna leave me But I hope you can believe me, it's a cycle when you see me Look my father hit my mother. Seen my grandpa push my granny Seen my cousin and my brother look, it's all up in the family My genes make me do this You clubbing every night, girl your Jeans make me do this They hug you so tight I feel like a heathen We was beefing, but that beefing could easily turn to grieving when blood is dripping and leaking I believe that I love you but Love is never the reason for hitting someone its deep and I really don't know the meaning Got my eyes wide shut I don't wanna see you leaving I would rather you just wait 'til I'm sleeping and then get even I'm not sorry that I did it, I'm just honestly sorry I'm still breathing F--k me