strength training ! (catharsis !)

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Pull at my head from under the water I'd rather go so deep that I can't breathe with you Than make the drive from my tree to the bottom Of the state in hopes that I'll have more to do [Pre-Chorus] And I don't know if it should go unsaid But some days I wanna go back the nights we spent Just to count down all the seconds each of us had left Till we flew off in opposite ways [Chorus] And whether it's the paper cup against the wind Or the words across your oddamn lips Or the awkward night I thought we'd kiss Through the fear and love I found my strength through you [Post-Chorus] Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh [Verse 2] I changed my laugh elevеn times that year And with evеry passing version it was a joyous sound to hear Or so you said As your voices traveled to my ears I intruded on your triangle But you said we made a square As close friends do [Pre-Chorus] And I don't know if it should go unsaid But some days I wanna go back the nights we spent Just to count down all the seconds each of us had left Till we flew off in opposite ways And I don't know if it should go unsaid But some days I wanna go back the nights we spent On the counter, at the table, and the night out Cause I don't wanna push you to push you away [Chorus] And whether it's the paper cup against the wind Or the words across your oddamn lips Or the awkward night I thought we'd kiss Through the fear and love I found my strength Through all the tears that battered off my cheeks And all the stupid songs that we would sing And the games to take the load off me Through the years of love I found my strength through you [Pre-Chorus] Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh I found my strength through you [Bridge] Afraid to be the last one left To share my story I'll bite my tongue It's for the lore Did I make it weird for my friends Should I refrain towards the end I'll do it over again She takes it as her ups and downs I made a mistake wanting to Fuck around with above my age Did I do it all to myself Is my abuse underwhelming Why did nobody tell me (not to do it again) She faked wanting to be with me The smile on her face her hands between my knees Why was I so proud to ruin A simple touch of the hand A hug from mother or friends A partner's warmth in my bed Don't make me do it again Don't make me do it again And I'll go against the winds As the words fall out from odder lips Though the autumn nights we wrecked as kids After years of love I found my strength In time I'll learn to stop So why can't I stop myself I swore I'd never do it again You tried to hide behind my latency But I woke up too late To see you cry [Outro] It's never nice to meet The girl I never wanted to be So I was forced to say goodbye I felt the daylight pass me by I got too loud and caused a scene And so I'll Cut back and maybe I can make it out Of those same old states I've got too many things on my plate I don't know why When odds were heavier You were my Backbone, bring me back I should've broke it off I'm never gonna be you I'm never gonna be I'm never gonna be you Oh, I'm never gonna Waste my weekends Or give you the time of day I'll never do it again