Song Meaning

The narrator finds a profound sense of purpose and meaning in life the moment they first see someone, declaring, "the meaning of being born into this world I understood." This initial encounter ignites a powerful, almost overwhelming infatuation, a feeling of being alive that contrasts sharply with their previous existence, which they describe as having "no hope in the world." The narrator's devotion is absolute, willing to do anything for this person, yet they are met with a cold, dismissive attitude, a constant source of pain. The central tension arises from this unrequited, intense affection clashing with the object of their desire's apparent indifference and even revulsion. The narrator confesses their love and admiration, but the other person "just passed by as if there was nothing." This rejection is compounded by the narrator's awareness of the other's "worst personality," yet they are still captivated by their "sad smile." The lyrics paint a picture of someone desperately trying to connect with a seemingly unapproachable, perhaps even cruel, individual. A striking moment of craft appears in the stark contrast between the narrator's desperate proposal and the other person's visceral reaction. After four years, the narrator finally asks, "Won't you be with me?" only to be met with the chilling response, "I feel sick when I see someone sparkling like the sun, like you." This brutal rejection highlights the fundamental incompatibility and the deep-seated aversion the other person feels, shattering the narrator's hopeful projection. Despite the profound heartbreak and the ultimate loss, the narrator finds a strange, hard-won peace. The birth of a child, a shared life, seems to bring a complex mix of emotions to the other person, who questions, "Why do precious things keep increasing when they will all be lost eventually?" The narrator, however, ultimately concludes, "even so, life is wonderful" and "I truly think it was good to be born." This final sentiment suggests that even amidst pain and loss, the experience of love and life itself, however flawed, has gifted them an enduring appreciation.