Lyrics

I've let myself drown in anger I've put myself into perfect isolation I've spent days accumulating my hatred And then I've opened my darkness and let this nightmare begin December - it's the time when nature dies And all the colors fade to black and white I remember my misery in sleepless night But what was worse - the lack of any fight First he was just a voice in my head And all he wanted was to see her dead He knew that I will blame myself for doing painful things to her And I'll carry this guilt forevermore Five months to take over control I'm going insane, all I want is to end this pain That day I realised what could be worse than death To be a silent witness while he's killing your self Killing your self Can't cry anymore (words stuck in the throat) I moan, I implore (no one hears my call) Cannot kill this twin (angel and devil in me) I've opened my darkness and let this nightmare begin I have no control and I can't Kill myself to stop this torture Screaming angels beg for mercy Suffering is my misfortune Not my eyes and not my thoughts Not my decisions, not my words Locked in my body, my black cell I only want to end this hell