Repression

Lyrics

[Chorus] I'm not gonna lie I'm feeling fucked up Ever since that day you Left my heart is stained I been drinking too much Cup after cup Some days I feel so empty Coz I can't call you baby [Post-Chorus] & I feel paralysed Is this real? So numb [Verse 1] Yeah I'm now alone, don't wanna be at home With your ghost just lurking on my phone The messages, the pictures Truth be told I couldn't clear out everything that we owned Some things still hold memories, new or old As we got further down cracks start to show All the signs I ignored, man I should've known We were never cut out for this Arguments all the time, only smiled for pics Never really noticed how much everything had changed Till I stepped out the dark. had to change & I had to quarantine from everything Got me thinking maybe is this maybeline I still feel you on my skin But I'm shedding it away Because it is constricting me I hope one day you hear The bars I spit Listen in, thinking that The hardest part of life is when the person who Gave you the best memories, becomes nothing but a memory [Pre-Chorus] The days blend into one another Nothing feels the same Feel like I'm running out of options I'm going round in circles Driving through the night just hoping Everything is gonna change 100 on the dash I ain't religious But I pray it'll all just be ok [Chorus] I'm not gonna lie I'm feeling fucked up Ever since that day you Left my heart is stained I been drinking too much Cup after cup Some days I feel so empty Coz I can't call you baby Repressing all of the feels Is this all real? (No this can't be real, no it can't be real) Didn't really wanna think back yeah It's all in my head Don't regret the past mistakes Got me to today Everything will stand for something I don't regret nothing [Verse 2] Yeah Friends are turning into enemies I do not fuck with you with & your energy Will only bring me down So stay away from me I been thinking bout life How people wanna play me every time Coz I been through hell & back to get here But hell I'll get up every time I can't do fake friends, got no time for it You critiquing me but ain't doing shit Rolly on my wrist, but I ain't got the time Days counting down, don't look at mine Racking up bands, stack too my height No tears left to cry, keeping my eyes dry I told myself that I'll never spend another minute Putting people first who place me as a second picking All the seconds sat about just hoping, praying, laying wishing If I would've said another thing, would it be the same of different If I didn't stick up for myself, just let it slip but thing is None of me regret it, 'cause I've been better off independent Yeah I'm really making everything happen Vision to reality, now who's laughing? Everything I said that I would get, I got 10 now Haters riding on me say it's fake What you talking bout? [Chorus] I'm not gonna lie I'm feeling fucked up Ever since that day you Left my heart is stained I been drinking too much Cup after cup Some days I feel so empty Coz I can't call you baby Repressing all of the feels Is this all real? (No this can't be real, no it can't be real) Didn't really wanna think back yeah It's all in my head Don't regret the past mistakes Got me to today Everything will stand for something I don't regret nothing