Lyrics

I gave my throat to the beast I let it in, let it feast I reached out, opened the door Then I laid down upon the floor Soon the floor was slick with blood And my body was undone And my mind was overcome Still I told the beast to come Still I told the beast to come [Verse 2] I was dragged from room to room My heart trembled so with doom There was a screaming in my head I willed that I had died instead Those that loved me couldn't reach me The beast had me so complеtely And I offered no rеsistance I gave wholly to its violence [Chorus] Sometimes it hurts so badly I want to rip myself apart I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore Sometimes it hurts so badly I want to tear myself in two I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore [Post-Chorus] I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore [Verse 3] I couldn't walk, but I could crawl And though the distance, it was small Every inch that I could move Dragged me closer to the truth I am the beast now, it is me I let it in, instinctively Else it would howl and it would stalk I did not falter, didn't balk [Chorus] Sometimes it hurts so badly I want to rip myself apart I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore Sometimes it hurts so badly I want to tear myself in two I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore [Post-Chorus] I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore I don't want to feel this anymore [Verse 4] Pain, it hungers to be felt To be heard and to be held And you can't begin to heal if you refuse to feel Take what is offered, use it, grow Or what else have you to show Just a void where living was Caught forever in its jaws [Bridge] You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life You must let death bloom with life [Outro] Sometimes it hurts so badly But I don't rip myself apart I'm not alone here in my sadness Friends sit beside me in the dark Sometimes it hurts so badly But I don't tear myself in two I hold the beast beside me It keeps me close to you