Test of Faith

Lyrics

[Skirmish] I felt like a worthless child that needs to gain faith And I keep a straight face 'cause it hurts to smile Countless times of runnin' away, I had an upbringing Of tough living, and my mother's to blame Was never far from crime, drugs and vandalism My father died quite young as a cancer victim My heart was broken, that's when I started smokin' 'Cause I couldn't take the thought of my father goin' It forever scarred my mind And my teenage years as a delinquent were some of my hardest times Had to leave the past behind, it's my time to grow Decided to come to the church and try and find a home And as time passed, began going down the right path Life starts again and so I found my kind heart This life I chose, I cross my heart and promise That my relationship with God will always last the longest [Hook] I'm gainin' my faith, and I'm losin' the pain I make my own destiny and I'm choosin' my fate And I pray that God has mercy on my soul Yeah, I pray that God has mercy on my soul… And I'm losin' my faith, but I'm gainin' the pain The end is near, now I just wait for the day And I pray that God has mercy on my soul Yeah, I pray that God has mercy on my soul… [Possessed] I spent most of my life trying to guide souls to the light Along the way I lost my faith and my devotion in Christ Haunted by the darkness of doubt, closing my eyes Have I followed teachings of a book totally blind? Who truly wrote the first editions? Am I living by the Lord's words of wisdom or a work of fiction? I can't honestly serve religion When as a priest, I've gradually lost trust in all church tradition My test of faith and as an educated man Can't believe God created everything in seven days Will I pass through Heaven's gates and reach a better place? When I've accepted money from the poor in my collection plates Any exceptions for a Catholic priest? Cold is the heart of man, and deafening the sound of chattering teeth Transform from a man to a beast Or are these the bitter rantings of a victim to the cancer disease? [Hook x2] Please… Excerpt from Blade Runner (slightly altered): "I've seen things you people wouldn't believe… All those moments will be lost in time… like tears in rain… time to die."