Book of Ephesians

Lyrics

[Intro] Uh Yeah Feel like... feel like my spirit come alive in the nighttime Near the darkness Huh... no pen, no pad Just my thoughts and my heart, my mind, my body, my soul The pain, the hurt, the glitter, it all ain't gold Nah Yeah, huh [Hook] Two tears in a bucket, fuck it I can't save the world with my mind on, got justice Sufferings been in accustom My mind playing tricks so it's harder to trust it Geto Boy made it out the mud I still got dirt I gotta scrub off Price of fame, it came with what cost I seek pain with all the love lost Now tell me what's success gon' breed? Jealousy, envy, lust and greed Hunger stems for a family to feed While the struggling steal from a vanity fiend Losing my mind for what sanity brings I'm in shackles and shambles Felt like I could handle this shit but it seems like it's handling me The devil interferes with my plan to achieve [Verse 1] Emotions all over the place, though I told you I'm straight Though I love you, I told you don't wait Forks in the road, do you know it's on plate? And it eats at my soul 'cause I told you the stakes Heavy's the head and I'm holding this weight Wanna give you my heart but are holes in that place [?], he the one I know people [?] He like "Keep your head high" as he rollin' the 8th Smoke to alleviate While he pass it, I'm stuck in the past Make it hard to appreciate moments that we intake As depression is taking control and I slowly depreciate Ma told me "Keep the faith" But at nights, where I'm back at the crib, I'm forgetting to even pray Can't even lead the way When the man that I'm aiming to be ain't the one that I see today [Hook] Two tears in a bucket, fuck it I can't save the world with my mind on, got justice Sufferings been in accustom My mind playing tricks so it's harder to trust it Geto Boy made it out the mud I still got dirt I gotta scrub off Price of fame, it came with what cost I seek pain with all the love lost Now tell me what's success gon' breed? Jealousy, envy, lust and greed Hunger stems for a family to feed While the struggling steal from a vanity fiend Losing my mind for what sanity brings I'm in shackles and shambles Felt like I could handle this shit but it seems like it's handling me The devil interferes with my plan to achieve [Bridge] Damn, I said could you believe it? Feel like lately, been fighting my demons Mama said I need book of Ephesians Lord save me 'fore I drown in the deep end I've been fighting and fighting to breathe I've been hiding, ain't tryna be seen 'Cause inside of my mind has been scenic Like the nightmares inside of my dreams, huh Damn, I said could you believe it? Feel like lately, been fighting my demons Mama said I need book of Ephesians Lord save me 'fore I drown in the deep end I've been fighting and fighting to breathe I've been hiding, ain't tryna be seen 'Cause inside of my mind has been scenic Like the nightmares inside of my dreams [Verse 2] I realize it's just me in the end When I die, it ain't me and my friends At the gate it's just me and my sins As he plays on repeat and I plead to repent Stain with filth, shame and guilt Left permanent scars with a wrench in my chest Conflicted with flesh, addicted to drugs, money, sex That was use to amend with the stress Remember the days I was gifted with less It was simpler, felt like a minimalist, ooh I became a materialist Finding the power in shit I possess It stem from the times when my mom was at home All alone with the thoughts of her killing herself It stems from the times I would roam far from home Getting way too stoned, wasn't feeling myself, uh On the progress to healing myself But this shit isn't linear, some days it hem me up I'm repeating mistakes I was giving up Skeletons in closet, I'm tryna get rid of 'em Pouring the liquor for all my niggas Who died in the war, I'm a drunken soul Grieving the ones that's gone Same time, grieving the pieces of me that's old Time to just let shit go Fuck suppressing, gotta let shit known They tell us black men that it's code 'Til it's suicide 'cause inside you can't hold No dog to fight but I'm picking a bone Take shit to the grave 'til it's written in stone Asking for grace of releasing this song And instead of my piece, put the ease to the dome [Hook] Two tears in a bucket, fuck it I can't save the world with my mind on, got justice Sufferings been in accustom My mind playing tricks so it's harder to trust it Geto Boy made it out the mud I still got dirt I gotta scrub off Price of fame, it came with what cost I seek pain with all the love lost Now tell me what's success gon' breed? Jealousy, envy, lust and greed Hunger stems for a family to feed While the struggling steal from a vanity fiend Losing my mind for what sanity brings I'm in shackles and shambles Felt like I could handle this shit but it seems like it's handling me The devil interferes with my plan to achieve