Song Meaning
The lyrics paint a picture of a deeply unbalanced relationship, where one person carries an immense, almost burdensome, affection for another who seems to cause them pain. The narrator offers unwavering support, describing themselves as a "hand" to hold and carrying the other "above my shoulders" and "on my back." This devotion is presented as a significant personal sacrifice, as the narrator admits they are "crumbling down" under the weight of it all, yet they mask their struggle by acting like "it isn't all that bad."
The central tension arises from the paradoxical nature of this connection. The person the narrator cares for, referred to as "you," is simultaneously a source of comfort and affliction. The line "when you cure one of my ailments / You give me a couple more" perfectly encapsulates this destructive dynamic. It suggests that any perceived benefit from the relationship comes at the cost of new, perhaps deeper, wounds, creating a cycle of dependency and hurt that forces the narrator to acknowledge a need to "fix myself."
The most striking aspect of the writing is the stark contrast between the narrator's internal suffering and their outward presentation, amplified by the desperate hope expressed in the chorus. The repeated "Maybe tomorrow will be better" functions as a mantra of denial, a plea for relief from the present pain. This hope is directly tied to forgetting hurtful words and recalling happier times, highlighting the current damage. The outro delivers a devastating blow: the narrator receives "a million reasons and one why you hate me" and "didn't disagree with a single one," revealing a profound self-deprecation and acceptance of blame that underscores the toxicity of the relationship and the narrator's own perceived worthlessness within it.
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