MILES AWAY from heaven

Lyrics

[Intro: Ray Vaughn] Yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, woah Let me talk my shit [Verse 1: Ray Vaughn] I know depression, I met her and fell in love Fuck a hug, I found a best friend with the drugs Hopefully this pill'll turn me back to person that I was 'Cause, honestly, I'd rather go to Xanny bars than to a club The only one who really loves me is the plug Otherwise, he wouldn't treat me like he does Stupid, of course I'd be judged But the hate feels so much better than the love I only wanna see my daughters when I'm buzzed Let me sip this drink Happiness cheated on me, I got attached to lonely No, I ain't crazy, I hate that you put that jacket on me An OD would be a blessin', I swear If God decide to take me now, make sure His angels prepare To carry my heavy soul to where it's about to go Feel like I already know, it ain't heaven for sure Who cares? I need my fix and don't nobody care I exist I go to rehab 'cause you asked, but that don't mean I'ma quit [Chorus: Ray Vaughn, Ray Vaughn & Mavryck] Death gotta be a block party 'Cause life is hard (Life is hard, life is hard) A psych ward in my bedroom Not so far (Not so far) Wish heaven was a mile away (Heaven was a mile away) Wish heaven was a mile away (A mile away) Wish heaven was a mile away (Hey) I'd fill my tank And leave this place forever [Verse 2: Ray Vaughn] Look I got stranded with regrets, I'm not invested in the steps (Ever) Can't be eleven of 'em left, it's no blanket for the sweats Is you gon' hold me when I ache and tell me everything's okay before I break? So why the fuck would you just leave me in this place? I gotta laugh to stop from cryin', overthinkin' when I'm silent Should've died and made you perfect, that would numb all of my problems Anxiety through the roof and my dogs can't help me In school, I would suppress the pain, but I always felt it Need an electrician, my light is the dimmest, not the best swimmer Adolescent years, I fished for attention, I'm bad for bidness Suicide playin' out in my mental, I'm tired of livin' You would only understand if you were me for just a minute Sometimes I sit in my car with the radio off Tryna listen to the sound of my heart I've digested all the lessons that society taught Wish I could hold it all together, but I'm fallin' apart [Chorus: Ray Vaughn, Ray Vaughn & Mavryck, Mavryck] Death gotta be a block party 'Cause life is hard (Life is hard, life is hard) A psych ward in my bedroom Not so far (Not so far) Wish heaven was a mile away (Heaven was a mile away) Wish heaven was a mile away (A mile away) Wish heaven was a mile away (Hey) I'd fill my tank And leave this place forever (Ever) [Outro: Ray Vaughn, Mavryck] Ever (Ever, ever) (And ever, and ever, and ever) (Oh, me) And I know death gotta be easy 'cause life is hard (Save me) Death gotta be easy 'cause life is hard (Save me) Death gotta be easy 'cause life is hard (Save me) Death gotta be easy 'cause life is—