This Side Of Me

Lyrics

Verse 1: They say that tears are God's gift to us, they heal as they flow like holy water What I feel in my soul is only darker These emotions run deep, they drilling through my cage They never spill on my cheeks, they spilling on the page Why am I still awake, the whole night's gone Cuz angels can't sleep when devils leave the porch light on I hear them whisper, staring at me with jealous eyes They talk filthy This battlefield left me paralyzed, walk with me Became an insomniac cuz these fuckers slept on me I resurrected just cuz they was wishing death on me My next steps was cursed like there's a hex on me I can"t right my wrongs, I turned left homie But it was right turn only I might burn slowly And my entire life turned lonely Dear Lord, I'm tryna learn, coach me My head is frying Shhhhh , listen closely You can hear the devil crying Hook: Honestly I done been crying all day I feel these demons creeping up and they don't play And I'm just scared of this side of me, Lord Said I'm just scared of this side of me Lord So honestly I done been crying all day I feel these demons creeping up and they don't play And I'm just scared of this side of me, Lord You should be scared of this side of me, dawg Verse 2: No one knows this stuff But no one's close enough for me to tell it to I'm telling you, I spot the hate in the eyes of a jealous dude Medusa's flirting Working her magic, got my juices burning It's working till the hand of God helped me to move the curtain I see it clearly for now The window to my wounded soul was blurred by tears He removed 'em all Tell me who's at fault When falling off, crew was gone Everybody loves a winner but we all lose alone Homie we driven by war, the love ends So people with common enemies will become friends Go against me I can sense the 7 deadlies It's envy, feel them jinx me with bad eyes Making allies surviving this war But jump ship before it capsize Ask why they riding no more It's on I pray for you no matter what you cats is wishing Bless your enemy and rob him of his ammunition Verse 3: So pray for me the way I'm praying for you Cuz the devil gets to the best of us, he taking me too Things he making me do I've seen the dark side of myself and I hated it I just hope that I'm making it through Tried to live right for a while but ended up conforming to the way of the world Became a slave to these girls, the money, and greed and Jealous of a man in a position I wanted to be in Dear Lord, help me fuck up these demons Can't you tell that I'm standing in hell? Till my heart and mind are in union like Gabrielle Till I find the strength in myself I can reach farther Knowing that the devil lives inside of the weak hearted Cuz when I came with the cross they crucified me Came with the torch and they tried to burn me alive B But why me? Cuz before I will live imprisoned I will die free And real eyes realize real lies B So hate but making foes I won't Love the people that treat me right, pray for those that don't Said you can hate but making foes I won't Love the people that treat me right, pray for those that don't