Smudge

Lyrics

Honey, it's a chore to love me, trust me I know I'm a sickening specimen with a self-loathing regimen, a self-diagnosed And I'm sorry I'm not all you hoped that I would be I trust you when you say you love me, I just don't trust myself Inhuman All I am is a fusion of muscle and blood Only mine's probably green On the rest of the species I must be a smudge Alcohol isn't for me, I haven't tried it I just believe When I was a kid this is not how I thought eighteen would be Now I'm an adult, still I feel a child Friends growing up while I stare at the drywall The samе damn paint in the same halls Same brain in thе same mold