Broken Soul

Lyrics

[Intro] They say nobody know you more than God and yourself But yourself is sometimes the person you wrestle with [Verse 1] I'm livin' in a shell like a hermit crab Hate to reminisce on the past 'cause it hurt too bad Lately, I ain't feelin' like Quincey Tried to open up, but people used the shit against me (Yeah) I know you can relate, the family be fake Closer to my friends, but my friends passed away Ain't lookin' for no sympathy, we all got some trauma Took me ten yеars to stop cryin' over my father (R.I.P.) Had power of attornеy at the age of twenty-three Funeral arrangements was all left on me Was too young for that type of pressure Wish we had more time to spend time together Mama still alive, I call her every day Days I'm feelin' low, she say, "Baby, better pray" You got no control, just like a broken bone Time heals everything but a broken soul [Interlude] Sometimes, I be with myself like Am I fuckin' crazy? I be thinkin' 'bout the same shit every day, like ruminatin' and Fuckin' filled with Depression, and you know, thinking too far into the future, I'm Riddled with anxiety Like, just tryna center myself, you know? [Verse 2] Growin' up in the ghetto'll have you with a scarcity mindset Used to havin' little to nothin', so by the time an opportunity comin', it's so much pressure to thrive Doubtful thoughts fill inside of your mind Why am I here? Do I deserve this? Do I put enough work in? Is this really my purpose? Soul searchin', like I ain't bought no new kicks in years Will I ever settle down? Soon as I start fuckin' around, seems like a new bitch appear To knock me off my square, but we playin' chess now Would she wipe my ass if I end up bed-bound? Would she love my daughter like her own? Shit, who knows I'd probably still risk it for some hoes The typical negro, get caught, get left, now you left with zero Why you cryin'? [Outro] See, they say as a man, you ain't supposed to cry, right? But I feel like you too much of a fuckin' tough guy if you hold it in And that's the shit that ruins you So let it flow Forgive yourself and others That's the only way you grow Stop bein' hard on yourself, give yourself grace Just get better every day