It Comes In Waves

Lyrics

[Hook] It comes in waves, there's nothing to say Everything has been washed away It comes in waves, it comes in waves It comes in waves It's not a matter of being brave Or trying hard to engage It comes in waves, it comes in waves [Verse 1] I never found a way to speak about the trauma Without swerving off a cliff of melodrama It's the key detail and it can't be ignored I'm the youngest of two but was the youngest of four Idolized my older brothers but they took their own lives And I still haven't recovered even though I've tried My insides twisted up the hurt is insane The irony is that they did it to ease pain And now I've lived more years without them than I lived with them Suicide is not a crime but everyone's a victim Imagine what my mom went through back in the eighties Raising four boys working, divorced lady And, "Maybe maybe maybe", "What if? What if?" Pointless empty questions that are hard to live with Tried to shift my perspective but the bullshit stayed And now mom's gone too, grief comes in waves [Hook] It comes in waves, there's nothing to say Everything has been washed away It comes in waves, it comes in waves It comes in waves It's not a matter of being brave Or trying hard to engage It comes in waves, it comes in waves [Bridge] There's nothing to say There's nothing to say There's nothing to say There's nothing to say [Verse 2] Everything is mixed up in my head Loss brings up the losses the dead beget the dead Friends have lost a parent but it didn't smash their heart Friends have lost a dog and they fucking fell apart Me? I lost my mom, atomic bomb My own private Hiroshima, wrong gone wrong Brought up every loss I ever suffered in the past "Thought I knew", think fast [Outro] In a million years those waves won't wash away And even in a million years those waves won't wash away And even in a million years those waves won't wash away And even in a million years those waves won't wash away And even in a million years those waves won't wash away It comes in waves And even in a million years those waves won't wash away It comes in waves And even in a million years those waves won't wash away It comes in waves And even in a million years those waves won't wash away It comes in waves There's nothing to say There's nothing to say There's nothing to say There's nothing to say