Never See Me Shine

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Pensive] Called my mom the other day  but i didn't have too much to say I told her bout my classes and the things that happened round my way I told her no regrets to feel. i study hard. im getting meals Im even in some rapping contest trynna win a record deal Truthfully im doing fine but i just feel im losing time When im not creative makes me feel like imma lose my mind So i take a minute to just think about what i can do What type of thing i like to do is sure to be exciting you? Im cutting down this mental block that i have just been fighting through And if you feel this verse than you can thank this beat im writing to Put the beat up on an easel and im lethal with the art i spit And you can't really see it all cus this is just a part of it I verbalize a vivid picture anytime that i get on With lyrics for acrylics trade my paintbrush  a microphone The speakers are my gallery so tune it in and listen up And ill take out my pallet knife so i can just go mix it up [Hook] My thoughts are constellations in the sky that is my mind Each syllable is racing but i dont know just what you'd find If they got illumination cus you never see me shine You never see me shine man you never see me shine [Verse 2: Pensive] Lately i can't fall asleep, cus i'm too busy dreaming Hear advice from both shoulders those are two busy demons But i ignore them both, they've got nothing they could give I Ambition and humility the only things i live by Sometimes its hard to see but i promise thats the truth of it Spend time around me i guarantee that even you'll admit Some people doing foolish shit and waiting for the soonest hit I try to keep my roots like my dentist when my tooth was chipped So i won't ever change after i've been in the booth a bit Was told that i'm too nice to be a rapper by some jewish chick I told her i've got talent listen heres some fucking proof of it Now i hear my songs when they are playing in her room and shit Its nice when people notice man but thats not what i do it for Same reason i might draw or paint, motivates me to record The reason i stay up at night, typing out my lyrics I know i need to say this but i think they need to hear it [Hook] [Verse 3: Pensive] I finally fell asleep i'll take a break in my dreams But even there it seems that i'm making rhyme schemes I'm tossing with the drums and I'm turning with the melody This rapping is a passion thats not something you can sell to me American as apple pie and i just want a piece of it My only limit is the sky, you might as well peace with it Its funny cus this piece of art can help me find some peace of mind And if i break my heart apart it helps put back the piece i find Until i rest in peace i will be writing over instruments From requiems to classic jazz, or knowble beats im into it I promise with the calmest sense of honesty upon this This beat is like my bible and im testifying on it I'll be truthful under pressure like when threats are flying honest I'll be candid like the greedy when their checks their riding on it Like a death defying comet i can fly beyond the human eye You say that i am like you but thats just comparing truth to lie [Hook]