Bouquet

Lyrics

I have become Something other than what I expected I would I'm not good And I'm not kind But I'm not cruel and I try Just like I promised would And I'm not special Like I thought that I was I am not remarkable or outstanding I am just I am just learning I am growing each day into a beautiful, very large flower I'm just part of the bouquet And I am not alone here We are beautiful things Now I wanna tell you I love you but I'm waiting 'til spring When you tell me I'm good And I almost believe it Maybe you're just peeking into the future 'Cause I don't yet see it though I try But I don't think that I'm nice And I'm not special I am just learning I am growing each day into a beautiful, very large flower I'm just part of the bouquet And I am not alone here Forever in bloom We are all just growing each day Shrinking under the moon And there's not anything good There's not anything right We are all just standing, reaching up towards the light 'til we wither And we fall in the middle of the night When there's no one there to see us And there's no one that despite Our roots wrapped around each others In and ancient sort of seal I will push your leaves away You'll keep pulling my thorns near And I'll be scared 'Cause flowers only last a week or so in a vase if you take care of them well And now the empty sheets I used to roll inside are made up and filled with the smell Of something blooming and my wintertime is warm In a way that I've never felt And I know you'd say If I think it I should say it If I feel it I should do it either way But I'm not good And I'm not kind I am very, very selfish I keep it all to myself and I am swaying in the breeze Trying very hard to bend But I am very, very weak I am broken into pieces very, very easily When I said that I would change I didn't know what that meant I am a very young tree My base is spreading out below about as fast as it can But I am very, very slow And the ground has not end No direction I should go I always thought that I was free but I was really just alone And now Our roots wrap around each other getting twisted in a loop We are tangled We are knotted Pulling my thorns into you It doesn't matter where I hide It doesn't matter where I run And there's no point in being here if I'm not reaching for the sun 'Cause I am Feeling something new that I have never felt before And even if I'm terrified at least it's better than ignoring All this pestilence I hide And If I'm rotted to the core at least I gave it all a try At least I'm looking for the cure And if you wrap me in your branches to protect me from the cold For just a little bit of time Then I'm ok with letting go of all the rotten roots I clung to All the pain that I adored And every time I see the light I'm cutting off a little more 'Cause I am feeling some thing new that I have never felt before (This is nothing at all like I thought it would be)