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[Verse] I couldn't say "What did I do to deserve this?" Everything you go through has a purpose Started back in April '09 Coming back to my mum's from community service Cuffs on my wrist, yeah that can make a man mad Seeing paramedics try attend to my granddad Jakes asking me questions, I wasn't one to hear Too much after my tape dropped, what a wonderful year Nah I'm being sarcastic But coming up my dargs smashed it I fought my own battles cause relying on help's sad Spent a couple months just driving myself mad Times when I felt bad, angry and stressed out Had the streets buzzing, told my mother "Get a next house" Paranoid, it doesn't help bunning on an ounce again Around the same time when I shut down Bounce FM Still I didn't know who was responsible This ain't a hand ting job, I need a longer tool Certain bruddas on ends showed me who did that Never heard that name before, tell me who's Izbach? Thinking were they lying, were they kids gassed? Way before shh got kidnapped Yeah I did flash round riffraff Probably wanna stick Pak when I go chitchat You can hear the realness in my voice akh Showed certain man love and they tried exploit that I never got grabbed, I went back willingly Stupidly, unconscious of the setup, are you feeling me? I went back to state the truth, I've never been a snaky yout You tried to justify your actions for a fake excuse Probably knew what was going on that day Were you off ends or did you lie like a fat snake? Sat back and watched it, had my strap could've stopped it Stabbed me in my back over what prick? And I ain't saying that you planned that But you must've got a phone call saying "Stand back" How could a man hand over a man's strap? No homo, you were meant to watch a man's back Are you listening? It's sickening and facts It's past sickening, it's lethal, Anthrax I built an empire from a couple gram wraps All your friends liars, petty hustlers and rats Back to the setup now, you said you couldn't intervene Ten minutes, you could've been there in the scene Twelve hours passed, during that you'd either been told Or been known, that makes you involved Was you really in the hoopty or did you lie more? Or was you really in Luton behind your wife's doors? Dunno why I ever brang you in, you'll probably die poor Now I'm just sitting here brewing, I'm thinking "Why talk?" It kinda hurts within that I've done hurtful things There's still good in me, hope God doesn't curse my sins '06, addition to my squad, I thought you burst your ting It was all my crud that made me tough, can't reverse what's been I've seen mad hating lead to mad snaking I learned to have patience, getting mad waiting I've seen man betray me that I had faith in I used to eat with your mum you little sad pagan And you ain't ever had proper paper Mother in the cupboard, had them clones in the propagator You ain't ever seen a proper set-up I was in Leeds, came back the whole crop got ate up I had to reassess a lot of things I had to breathe a bit, stop and think I wasn't eating enough, I'm still abusing piff I wasn't sleeping much, I was losing it I've seen friends turn to foes, I was confused a bit Once this creme's on the road, I hit the troops with it Took some time off, that wasn't lucrative But I'm older and I'm wiser and I'm used to this I'm tired of wasting P's on stupid shit Thinking bout Louis kicks and newish whips Still getting dirty money, I ain't through with it I'm in the booth to spit and to make moves legit Look at how everything on ends went so pear-shaped What was there fake, now I need airplay