This Is Not Really Happening

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Should've seen it coming, should've known that something's wrong But now I'm sitting as I watch you pull the pin out of a bomb And toss it to me Please don't do this to me Picking at the seams and gripping tightly to the couch Your grandma gave when we moved in, I couldn't wait to throw it out Now it'll always Be where my world caved in [Chorus] Oh, help me, this is not really happening It's just too overwhelming Tell me it's not what it seems This is all just a dream Oh, God, is this what You had in mind? It's not supposed to be like this I'm mad and I'm sad Afraid and ashamed I don't know what to say I'm not okay, is that okay with You? [Verse 2] Maybe I misheard, please let me think, just give me time My calculations and projections and my plans arе always right What are You saying? Can you explain it again? Everything is finе, it will be fine, I swear I'm fine And if I keep repeating lines, then maybe by the hundredth time That I say it I can make it true [Chorus] Oh, help me, this is not really happening It's just too overwhelming Tell me it's not what it seems This is all just a dream Oh, God, is this what You had in mind? It's not supposed to be like this I'm mad and I'm sad Afraid and ashamed I don't know what to say I'm not okay, is that okay? [Bridge] Emotions play chaotic games And claim my mental real estate I can't, it's too hard And I'm falling apart Does that mean I don't have enough faith? I've tried and tried So God, why can't I pray this all away? [Chorus] Oh, help me, this is not really happening It's just too overwhelming Tell me it's not what it seems This is all just a dream Oh, God, is this what You had in mind? It's not supposed to be like this I'm mad and I'm sad Afraid and ashamed I don't know what to say I'm not okay, is that okay with You?