My Dearest Self with Malice Aforethought

Lyrics

[Intro] What took so long to believe in you? What took so long to believe in you? [Verse 1] How does it feel to watch them pour, what you've been through I'll let the Earth have it's way with me if it won't touch you Breaking the odds, and the smell of violation Cried so hard 'cause I could never, be God's creation [Interlude] This sound, it's a strange place I keep returning to in my nightmares I replay those nights over and over and over Sometimes I even start to refer to them as dreams Because whеn I wake up is when it becomеs real And I'd think about it regardless if I was asleep or not [Verse 2] I'm hurting inside The last time I've felt like this I took my own life 'Cause there's no way I would rather want to die My final gift to this, my beautiful suicide Let these thoughts dance on If you felt this I'll make you [?] But keep living for my own sake 'Cause if I lose one more, I think that I'll break Breaking the odds, and the smell of violation Cried so hard 'cause I could never, be God's creation [Outro] Been to the holy worlds My lord, my saviour, I ask the above, "Why?"