Funeral

Lyrics

[Chorus] Am I wrong for thinking I'm the worst I've waited so long but my life has just dispersed I'm almost wondering if my whole life is cursed Bout to burst into tears cuz I hate not having worth In the school in the mall in bed Doesn't matter where I am I wanna be dead Thinking bout the times I was fucking mislead And left On read With no answers but these meds [Verse 1] Wish I didn't do some shit but fuck it I'm here now And I'm working to be king but no ones giving me a crown And the shit I do to myself when there's nobody around Would make anybody think I'm anything but safе and sound All the blood that I have lost but still therе's nothing good I've found I'm obsessed with tears and blood like ima fucking blood hound Help me out Help me out I need saving not clout And anybody who been wit me prolly hate what I'm about I've been searching for a while but there's not any answers Everybody hate on me like my name is fucking cancer People patrolling and controlling my life like a ranger And in the midst of this, in my head I'm a stranger So after everything I've been through I'm just in my head again I shouldn't talk to bitches if I really just befriended them I hate being alone with no one else but this medicine So if i overdose it's not my fault so don't cry- [Hook] At my funeral Don't cry I know I'm not there But you're not alone [Chorus] Am I wrong for thinking I'm the worst I've waited so long but my life has just dispersed I'm almost wondering if my whole life is cursed Bout to burst into tears cuz I hate not having worth In the school in the mall in bed Doesn't matter where I am I wanna be dead Thinking bout the times I was fucking mislead And left On read With no answers but these meds [Verse 2] And fuck your dumb ass therapy it never helped me through it All the bullshit that I've been through tore me up and made me ruthless I can't count how many times some random bitch has called me useless I might not make the best choices but I swear I'm not stupid They make it seem like I act like this on purpose I don't try to push people away with such a quickness I've went through every closet in my head to find my purpose But all I keep finding is another fucking sickness I keep pushing my friends away I tell them I need distance But all I really need is for them to stay and fix this But that's not their problem cuz they're not the ones that did it I'm sorry anyone I love, I'm sure you'll never get it- And I might just pull the trigger Cuz my pain is way bigger Might just die by smoking cigar- Ettes Or popping some Percocets But baby please don't be too upset Just be there and be calm and sit Because nobody did this shit So baby don't you cry- [Hook] At my funeral Don't cry I know I'm not there But you're not alone [Chorus] Am I wrong for thinking I'm the worst I've waited so long but my life has just dispersed I'm almost wondering if my whole life is cursed Bout to burst into tears cuz I hate not having worth In the school in the mall in bed Doesn't matter where I am I wanna be dead Thinking bout the times I was fucking mislead And left On read With no answers but these meds