shadow

Lyrics

[Intro] It goes dark And it is most definitely a moment of utter disorientation Utter lostness, no warmth, no life, no movement [Verse 1: nobigdyl.] Yeah, yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah Love you so much that the issues I used to hold on to are nothing, they're minuscule Love you so much that I make it up to you whenever I flip like reciprocals Love you so much that I blocked all my exes, I blocked all the exits, I'm with you forever Love you so much that I don't even trip when they say that I'm sick and they ridiculed Love you so much that I gave up addiction, I stopped all the clickin', and now it's all clickin' Love you so much that I changed my old number so all their attempts are just pitiful Love you so much that I stopped sayin' thot Now I see women as God's children I see their souls and their hearts glisten Look at them glow like they're Marge Simpson Love you so much that I save my receipts and I watch what I eat when I'm gettin' food Love you so much that I give up my seat even when I am beat and not in the mood Love you so much that sometimes I lose sleep 'cause I can't come to terms with what I did to you Love you so much that I ask God to help me smile when I'm cynical [Hook: Sarah Juers] I face these passing waves A lonely cast away I fight my battle Beside my shadow [Verse 2: nobigdyl.] Hate me so much for the pain that I caused to the ones that I truly hold dear Hate me so much that it comes out in tears Hate me so much I don't look in the mirror Hate me so much that I slip into fantasies darker than Black Mirror seasons Sometimes I feel like just leavin' Don't need a number of reasons Hate me so much I retreat into sleep, I'm even hidin' from Jesus Feel like I'm livin' with demons, inside my closet, are legions Hate me so much when I'm hurt then I'm happy 'cause I tell myself I deserve it I'm in my bed with the serpents And they told me that I'm worthless Hate me so much that I don't wanna listen when you tell me I'm a good person But you don't give up so easy, fervent, remindin' me of my purpose Hate me so much but you're teachin' me love and I think that I'm startin' to learn it Written in crimson and cursive, quiet and curious, perfect [Hook: Sarah Juers] I face these passing waves A lonely cast away I fight my battle Beside my shadow I face these passing waves A lonely cast away I fight my battle Beside my shadow