Recording In The Dark

Lyrics

Inspiration to write been getting harder to find Have I reached my last page in this book of rhymes For God's sake, I'm tired of reliving the heartbreaks Tired of talking bout how these niggas are all fake Online all the rappers doing goofy shit for views Tryna go viral off of everything but the music Leaving me more confused than amused Is this what securing fans has really come to Men dissing women been a thing, and Being disloyal, switching up on their team and All of the codes got thrown out all of the doors Losing a little more patience than I could afford Don't wanna be the old head complaining bout things changing If I can't learn to adapt, I'll prefer to step back Cuz I see where things are going as we move forward And I just can't afford what'll cost me my morals Just rhyming in the dark Reading through lines I was scribing from the heart Random things I jot down when I am in my thoughts This ain't even a chorus I'm just filling up these lines til the next verse I feel like since I learned my niece would be born, my mind was reborn Started opening up my eyes wider, I could see more Like just how fucked up we are in this world And they still trying to make it harder For all our lil black boys and girls Born from centuries of disadvantages And these crackers gon make damn sure we never catching em How I'm supposed to have pride in a country that don't love me That hates my dark skin, my partner preference And the fact that I'm a woman Every June I gotta choose what I wanna celebrate Is it my pride in being free or my pride of being gay Let's get this straight, I'm proud of both every single damn day But I've faced more discrimination because of my black face Cuz most of em don't care if they offend a nigga But'll jump through hoops and over hurdles To make sure that I don't feel a Way about being gay, and that's the real agenda Try and make us pick a side, so they conquer when we divide And I'm tired. There's too much on my mind I just want A'Zariah to live a life that ain't as complex as mine Dear God, I'm so tired. Too much on my mind I pray to You that my niece's life is easier than mine