not really fine

Lyrics

[Chorus: portorosso] In reality, I'm not really fine After all these denying times, I've lost my mind I always get put behind, having no place to shine You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined So_actually,_in_reality, I'm not_really fine [Verse 1: nigel na�ve] Overcomplicated, sedated,_desecrated The parts of me that you hated, outdated I feel the shade hit, I'm not really fine Wishing you would hit up my line (Look at me) Wishing you would give me some of your time Wishing on a star, is that who we are? I'm not going far if it's not with you Wishing on a plane, my towers' in flames Crumbling to Ground Zero, that's the truth Oh, yeah [Pre-Chorus: Both] Sometimes I feel like my whole world is crumbling apart Sometimes I don't even know where to start [Chorus: portorosso] In reality, I'm not really fine After all these denying times, I've lost my mind I always get put behind, having no place to shine You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine After all these denying times, I've lost my mind I always get put behind, having no place to shine You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine [Post-Chorus: portorosso] Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo Doo-doo, not really Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo Doo-doo, not really [Verse 2: nigel na�ve with portorosso] You live in my head rent-free, it's scary The person I wanted you to be, imaginary Couldn't find a doctor to help with showing caring I put my trust in an apothecary, that's the contrary Glass windows in my mind, I regret all of the times When you said you wanted to be mine I can't help thinking that everything we had was a lie I try to fight the feeling but I just can't describe it You tell me this, tell me that But that's something I can't see past [Break: Both] I gave you everything (I gave you everything, I gave you everything, I gave you everything) I gave you everything (I gave you everything, I gave you everything, I gave you everything) I gave you everything (I gave you everything, I gave you everything, I gave you everything) [Chorus: portorosso] In reality, I'm not really fine After all these denying times, I've lost my mind I always get put behind, having no place to shine You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine [Outro: nigel na�ve] It's the process for me. It's always been the process. Letting go is the one thing I can't do because that type of shit impales me. So I write. I write until the dagger's out. That's my schtick...