AMOUNA

Lyrics

Its like I can't shake this feeling I just wanna get back to myself back being normal & With every ounce of my being it won't happen what the fuck   Something ain't right with me Its like my mind is having fights with me Every time that I open my eyes Its like its dimmering the light in me I gotta force myself to get out of bed Its like Im paralyzed with these fuckin' thoughts in my head I don't wanna be a zombie takin' all of these meds As a Matter of fact, maybe ill be bettеr off dead How the fuck did I becomе this person so disgusting In my younger years, I had happiness and abundance This ain't how I saw my life being Im supposed to be traveling the world going sightseeing Now I don't wanna see nobody I lost the person closet to me took the spirit out my whole body I hate my life and I hate myself Just leave me in my room with the blinds closed I don't need no help My Back's against the ropes I don't see no hope If I knew how to make it stop I'd make it stop but I don't Why am I the only one who feels like this I try to smile around people but I feel like shit I don't know what's going on And My kids are lookin' at me like they know somethings wrong I need some help and some time to get right I just wanna get strong so I can come back to life   Everything in me just died And I can't shake this feeling no matter how much I cry My mind is telling me things and I know its a lie I just wanna run and hide I WANT OUT Somewhere I went off track but now  Im the only one that's holding me back Got a lotta trauma there's a lot to unpack I know feelings aren't facts but I WANT OUT   Everything in me is fightin' Making gratitude lists every morning I'm writin' Praying 5 times a day through the thunder and lightning Now I'm feeling a little better and my senses are heightening.  I just gotta stay vigilant  No drinks and no drunks I can't take the belligerence  My brain is dumbing down and I know that I'm brilliant Looking in the mirror and I see the resilience.  I see glimpses of my old self it might take a few What didn't kill me only made me stronger and unbreakable Let your light shine before the darkness starts claiming you Take my life back is what I came to do   Everything in me's alive My light is shining brightly cuz I don't believe the lies The Wind is at my back and I feel like I can fly Tears of joy is what I cry cus… I WONT QUIT I got angels watching my back Blessings and abundance and I'm watching them stack Got some broken pieces and still I won't crack I know feelings aren't facts so… I WONT QUIT