Our Numbered Days

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"The best way to get to heaven is to take it with you." - Henry Drummond. "Heaven isn't a place, it's a feeling." - Sierra Demulder. "Heaven will be no heaven to me if I do not meet my wife there." - Andrew Jackson. In many languages, the word for heaven is the same as the word for sky. - Wikipedia. "I will sing to you all the things I stopped myself from saying while we were alive." - The author. "All the way to heaven is heaven." - John Donne. "I hope the exit is beautiful and I hope never to return." - Frida Kahlo. "The lights dimmed, the singing stopped." - Louise Erdrich. When my mother dies, I will lead her like a dog into the space between our walls, which is just like the space between here and always, the king and the kingdom. I will lead her by the hand if she be blind, and I will wag my tail against her knees if she be afraid, and I will leave her at the gate. Life on earth will, in some ways, be easier. I will not have to return her phone calls. I will not have to feel guilty when I want to hear no more, no more about the divorce. I won't cry though I will want to cry though I will hate myself for not crying. When my mother dies, if I am still alive, I will slouch on my knees as though in prayer, I will write one or two poems, and I will no longer think of her.