Hindsight

Lyrics

(There is no debating that the effects of trauma experienced in childhood, may have grave consequences) I think my past is catching up Steady dodgin' my demons Write my feelings And hope that this weed can help with my healing I think my past is catching up Feel like I'm losing my presence Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend I think my past is catching up Steady dodgin' my demons Write my feelings And hope that this weed can help with my healing I think my past is catching up Feel like im losing my presence Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend Feel like my past is catching up, thе more I'm dodging these shadows Dark days arе upon us and everybody so fragile It's like we wallow in our sorrows, take a bite of the apple Maybe sniff some snow white, hope it saves us the hassle Of being stuck inside this world where depression takes over All this weight on my shoulders, feel like I'm lifting a boulder Every hour is colder, makes it hard to stay sober Time stop moving slower, I feel the anger get closer I hide my low self esteem behind the guise of being modest Pushing for perfection 'cause these people only love flawless Looking back at my self through these reflections that's honest I can visualize the monster that's inside of these sonnets Strugglin' to look in the mirror, who's this monster I've conjured But I can't talk to nobody, 'cause nobody is bothered Livin' in the depths of this darkness every day gettin' harder Tryna better myself, but I'm too much of my father I think my past is catching up Steady dodgin' my demons Write my feelings And hope that this weed can help with my healing I think my past is catching up Feel like I'm losing my presence Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend I think my past is catching up Steady dodgin' my demons Write my feelings And hope that this weed can help with my healing I think my past is catching up Feel like I'm losing my presence Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend Every day another struggle just for me to wake up My girl and I have been fighting, and I'm afraid to break up My Momma question my logic she thinks I'm being a bum Wanna argue but can't 'cause money goes when it comes Bills been kicking my ass I'm fightin' back but won't last 'Cause every penny I spend kills me like it's my last Never high, never low, just painfully in the middle And with the world being big, makes a nigga feel little All this time going by, my anger makes me so brittle Breaking off from my family I feel a part of me cripple Feeling like I'm my father in every verse that I scribble Same person, different story gettin' caught off these nickels And these dimes hold me up, try to dodge 'em, it's tough Watch my father run through 'em that's where prollems stem from Watch him beat on my momma, that anger left me with trauma I'm ashamed to look like him, but we have so much in common I think my past is catching up I think my past is catching up Steady dodgin' my demons Write my feelings And hope that this weed can help with my healing I think my past is catching up Feel like I'm losing my presence Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend I think my past is catching up Steady dodgin' my demons Write my feelings And hope that this weed can help with my healing I think my past is catching up Feel like I'm losing my presence Put all my focus in this gift hopin' that I'll be a legend (I think my past is catching up) (I think my past is catching up) (I think my past is catching up) (I think my past is catching up)