We Carry The Feeling

Lyrics

Search through the sky for a sign or a simple suggestion I waited all night but I was fast asleep when it knocked upon my door It gets lonely here when it's just me and my questions Jetsam in the ether, pulsar's pull not drawing anymore I remember it like yesterday I thought you were lovely I just didn't know what to say There's all these protocols that get in the way We were on the edge of seventeen All we knew to say were things we didn't mean I still impressed you with my wit it seemed I learned so much from magazines and television About how men relate through rules to tell them how Oh I saw the signals with precision The moments when our habits faltered Omens of desire unaltered It wasn't long 'til we were sharing beds With different dressings on the dreams appearing in our heads I wanted a lover you a brother instead Either way these things were hard to name Never quite knowing did we feel the same After a while all I could feel was shame Stef she said I shouldn't see you anymore Clyde they tried to call me on the phone — to say — Some loves are labors lost oh but I'm never sure There's nothing they could tell me that made me Ever really want to be alone And I felt a funny face, was a worthless waste, caught a hopeless case For sweet boys on sweaty days, don't know what we craved, it remains unspoken The longing outlived the place, our artistic taste, it outlived the clothes we wore When I feel uncertain now, I remember how we carry the feeling But those were stories that we saved for dark That lost the plot before they'd even start Except once when we were drunk and then you kissed me hard And so I faded to a distant star In the brightest company but everything was so far Thinking lifetimes pass us, gaseous, things just stay as they are I tried to chalk it up to expectation Or believe that what I wanted was just wrong But now I better understand assimilation I closed ranks among the ones who felt I Only part-belonged among them And I felt a funny face, was a worthless waste, caught a hopeless case For sweet boys on sweaty days, don't know what we craved, it remains unspoken The longing outlived the place, our artistic taste, it outlived the clothes we wore When I feel uncertain now, I remember how we carry the feeling