Решения (Decisions)

Song Meaning

The song opens with a feeling of passive existence, a narrator simply drifting through life, almost forgetting the act of making choices. This initial state is described as a flow, where decisions – strange, silly, quick, boring, or right – seem to happen almost by accident, or at least without conscious intent. The narrator acknowledges these decisions are being made, but with a hesitant "perhaps," suggesting a detachment from their own agency. This passive stance is immediately challenged by a repeated, almost taunting question: "Do you want to be closer to me? / Do you want to be further with me?" This creates a central tension, highlighting the narrator's unpredictable or perhaps inconsistent nature in relationships. The insistent "Get used to it" response suggests an acceptance of this inherent instability, framing it as something others must adapt to rather than something the narrator intends to change. The core of the song lies in the overwhelming, almost mantra-like repetition of "I make decisions." This isn't just a statement of fact; it's an assertion that becomes more pronounced as the song progresses, especially after the questioning in the pre-chorus. It feels like a self-reassurance, a way of reclaiming control or perhaps a desperate attempt to convince oneself of agency in the face of uncertainty. Later verses introduce a broader, almost cosmic perspective, suggesting that "without our mistakes, nothing in this world will move" and that the world is chaos. Yet, even within this grand, indifferent universe, the narrator asserts personal agency: "But for myself – I make decisions." This contrasts the external chaos with internal resolve, even if that resolve is expressed through the very act of deciding, rather than the content of those decisions. The outro solidifies this by focusing on self-acceptance: "I don't know how to be myself / And I don't know how to be another / I don't know secrets / But I accept myself as I am."