Codependency

Lyrics

Somehow the hand that reached out And touched me in the night wasn't yours Just a puffy and bland phantasmagorical hand I felt no need to shout, no need to act out And I woke up in a cold sweat just before three Had to check on my phone to see if you'd messaged me I don't need to feel important, just necessary Although my psychotherapist wouldn't agree I want to help somebody to need me Codependency It's a nasty new word for love, you see Brought from therapy But fuck therapy It never made me happy Like you make me happy You're important to me I like to feel necessary But whosе hand is this hand? The touch in the darkness was clammy and damp And I'd been surе I was alone It seems I wasn't at the seashore, I knew that for sure Because the sheets on the bed were dry as a bone So I snapped on the lamp and no-one was there No skeletal vamp and no skull with lank hair It was probably just some prank Pulled off by a cuck or a crank Some joker working late at the bank Codependency Sticks and stones may break my bones But you can never hurt me It's horses for courses I'll get my coat, I'll be here all night The hand has got me by the throat I've even stopped believing all the things I say They're so bland But whose hand is this helping hand? And you finally called me at three To tell me your night was full of policemen And could I come round To tape garbage bags over your window To block out the light and the sound? As I belted my raincoat, in a sudden flash of lightning I thought I could see some kind of horrible projection On my tallboy in the shape of a small boy Without a face of any kind And just a horrible hole Where there should normally be a mind Codependency Just another new word To terrify me And I'm already so scared That you're abandoning me And I don't trust myself Don't know what's come over me You're belittling me But no one else would care for you The way I care for you Can't you see? More than I care for myself There's nobody else But whose hands are these?