The yellow blanket

Lyrics

Thank god your angst is as relentless as my disdain I only need to pretend we're capable of managing pain Or accepting we're miserable, or that we don't feel at home And that we are all our own versions of hell Thank god for every little memory that keeps us awake Thank god for every fucking second we spend feeling unsafe Thank god for our dismay, thank god for all our loss And i hope god has barely just begun But i can't help it I fail myself, but then I awoke, comforted by blue Looked around, not one sight of you Opened the curtains, saw the sky Let the bright squint my tired eyes For a split second, heard your voice Overwhelmed in tears for rejoice Stared at the light and you were there Drenched in the color of our care Thank god i'm not the only entitled brat who thinks everything is his fault Neither the only needy fuck who desperately preaches of self-help But fails as an example, yet succeeds in struggling to handle The barrier his parents helped construct Since the cradle we were gifted, since the cradle we were smart But once we left said solace, the bed of nails we lay on play their part In rooting all the malice that should be dealt with in therapy Where we attempt to learn we're not our own worst enemies But i can't help it I ruin, but then We met in my dreams once again To speak of hope towards an end You said words of motivation I made a silly distraction We drank the last bottle of wine Encouraged ourselves through tough times You slept in my yellow blanket Before me, but i'll allow Thank god the sun is as relentless As the face on my phone's surface That wishes i were there Thank god the sun is as relentless As my fucking filthy canvas Soiled by your care Thank god the sun is as relentless As my selfish stances Demanding your despair And i hope you're fucking terrified I hope you're fucking lost Because i don't want to be alone The plan of indisposition came to complete fruition And we are completely self-aware Of the presence of despair leading us away from care But the sun, oh, the sun Thank god the sun is a relentless yellow blanket It smells like me and you Thank dog