Ego death

Lyrics

When Rosenstock sang "love is worry" I felt the flow of harmony But when worry cracks me open All i spill is black blood When milk and honey is solace As all things are ending Eventually i scurry back To wherever i should've forgotten When i praise loveless sun and moon Recognize it as friendly evil I'm amazed by its influence Enabling me to do what i never thought i'd even dare to do But all the pretty words won't help me From all the honest truths i got All the certainties i desired Will proceed to swallow me up All the faces i stared at and said "we will hurt each other" Include faces who never hurt me And we don't see each other anymore When the pain of facing facts The honesty we can't take back sets in A voice tells us we would if if we could Even though we feel we shouldn't Look where 'feeling' got us now Solitude and no more sound To drench the madness with our noise Seems like a failed attempt to avoid Everything i chose to believe in Everyone i chose to believe in Everywhere i decide to live in All the love i desperately needed But of course the love has settled in And the desperation worsened And when the desperation worsened Was the moment when i felt threatened And the moment i feel threatened Is a moment i could go off And the moment i go off Is the moment i look at you And i say "i want to see your blood, i want to make sure i am normal" And if i notice i'm abnormal I will demand you make it darker And this possible reality is just too much for me Incessant suffering isn't exactly always liberating It's especially distressing to notice the maladies i mention Have either inflicted you or you notice it inflicted me They say conversation is healthy But i don't feel so good We should all let it flow Every drop of strained hope But when i stare at the moon I notice i have thought of you Then realize i've hope inside And know that means i'm doomed Yet still i stare at the moon That star reminds me of you So if you leave and if you die How the hell could i get by Moonlight shadows from above Memories of all your love If you leave and if you die How the hell will i get by? I'll cry