Lyrics

[Intro] Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I went too far and I actually did it [Part I] Tired of pretending that I'm fine with how it's been What if I let go 'cause I'm just hanging by a thread Maybe I should stop before I go that route again Or maybe I should stop suppressing what I'm thinking in my head And sometimes routine changes, but it never goes away A ritual's replaced, but I still never get a say I try to change myself, but I can rarely keep my plans Before I'm forced to stop myself and turn around to wash my hands I know I look informal I stand out un-ignorable What must I do to be normal 'Cause this right now is horrible [Part II] W-W-W-W-Walking through the shopping plaza wearing shades but not because it's sunny I'm just thinking, what if I get looks because my eyes are red and puffy Crossing all my fingers and my toes too in the hopes of getting lucky But nothing I do changes that I'm shopping in a plaza with no money Day after day after day is the same and I'm over it I'm not meeting any expectations even as they keep on lowering Scared of confrontation 'bout this space I'm in where nothing really matters Say I'm at my breaking point but possibly I've already been shattered [Part III] Million pieces shattering, broken glass splattering Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on all the Million pieces shattering, broken glass splattering Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on all the How, is the question Why, I won't answer When, well actually before tomorrow's dawn No time to question if it's wrong Million pieces shattering, broken glass splattering Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on all the Million pieces shattering, broken glass splattering Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on all the Million pieces shattering, broken glass splattering Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on all the Million pieces shattering, broken glass splattering Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed (Step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed, step on it and bleed) [Part IV] (Micah Callari, Micah Callari, Micah Callari, Micah Callari) Made up my mind for real this time Now there's nothing that can break my stride I'm numb to the pain, I'm blind to your angsty attitude You strange fellow in the mirror You stare back coldly You look back to the old me The me that talks less boldly I wish someone had told me that Hey I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay Whatever you say, you say, you say, you say At the end of the day, the day, the day, the day I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay, okay Hey I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay Whatever you say, you say, you say, you say At the end of the day, the day, the day, the day I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay Maybe they're wrong and money can buy happiness A little bit of cash to fill up all that emptiness 'Cause currently I look all around me and get envious The smiles in their stories give me feelings so insidious They're toxic, how they tell me I'm so weird when they're just NPCs They see me opening my sauce and laugh 'cause they can't let me be They talk all critical, they love to get political They're clearly neurotypical, that makes us antithetical Hey I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay Whatever you say, you say, you say, you say At the end of the day, the day, the day, the day I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay, okay Hey I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay Whatever you say, you say, you say, you say At the end of the day, the day, the day, the day I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay [Part V] I think I'm safe now I can't explain how But something changed and now I'm planning out my life beyond eighteen I'm still not happy I'm still not great But everything is fine 'cause at long last I see the light at the end of the tunnel It blinds me so I start to stumble A great big rainbow, make it double I'm ready to bury up the shovel I don't need burying anymore My mom and dad embrace me No more voices that say they hate me The mirror's reaching out to take me But I resist, I'm crying, please don't wake me I don't wanna go back To the pain that greets me in the sunlight There's only one light I can stand now And it's the nightlight by my table, please don't wake me I'm finally free of OCD Of handwashing and running away from bees My headspace is nothing but peace And you really want to take that away from me, please don't wa- [Outro] Nothing and everything together at the same time An endless void of hopelessness As the mind and the brain have given up Comprehending anything Objects become colors Colors become feelings And feelings become a foreign sensation to you Your feeling of self is taken away from you And you become a passive observer Autopilot doesn't feel like the correct term Because you're not really doing anything Other than just Existing It's not sad It's not frustrating It's not like anything in the moment when it's happened (shut up) But when it's over (shut up, shut up) How can you continue on (shut up, shut up) Do you just pretend it never happened