Lyrics

[Intro] Hid a knife inside a box that lay beneath my bed Walk and talk all fearless but I'm petrified of death I'm even more a disappointment if I wuss out of the act I tried to emulate a feeling but my skin still stayed intact [Verse 1] Hi and goodbye To this new you that I just met Is this as good as it gets Between you and me And why Must you leave so soon when you could stay with me 'Cause I'm not ready to see The world, please Wait up, wait up, for me (Please) Wake up, wake up, with me (Please) We do it all together, you and me forever 'Cause I'm not up to measure, I just can't take the pressure [Chorus] Try not to let them get to me Staying calm, unstable mentally I made an album to keep myself from reeling I made an album to emulate a feeling They're in denial, should I just spell it out (Not yet) I write in code as a way of yelling out I wrote a song to keep myself from screaming I wrote a song to emulate a feeling [Verse 2] My oh my I guess I thought that you'd play nice I guess I should've guessed twice 'Cause I guessed wrong Now I Must now find My tally-man who's keeping track Of when I get to unpack My trauma in a song Staring in the mirror, making eye contact Don't forget my name, gotta pull you back Can't count to four, must I be a sleuth Mangos can fly and I swear it's true You're running on, walk in walk out Unfair, when the sun shines I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay, okay (Do I need to repeat myself again because) [Chorus] Try not to let them get to me Staying calm, unstable mentally I made an album to keep myself from reeling I made an album to emulate a feeling They're in denial, should I just spell it out (No) I write in code as a way of yelling out I wrote a song to keep myself from screaming I wrote a song to emulate a feeling [Verse 3] At one, I was happy, I was normal, I was fine Then at two, I was told I'm special and my parents cried Yeah, I know the next three years happened, but they don't come to mind Try and forget what could've been, forget the part of me that died (Yippee) I'm not surprised with my track record that I don't have a therapist I guess I'm too stuck worrying if I look cute while wearing this I haven't cut my hair and tell myself it's an experiment I say I'm not depressed because my mental state's not perilous Wake up at eleven some days Barely back alive on Monday Twitter tells me 'bout my country Move on drown my fears with funnies Hahaha, self-deprecation just to cope If they ever give you funny looks just tell them it's a joke If they really knew me well then they'd be worried when I spoke Because beneath all of the lies, I'm barely breathing I might choke [Outro] Memories from my camera roll A time when I felt good Felt understood And life's been creeping up to take its toll To keep my end of the deal And now it hurts to feel