​back to the sun pt. 1

Lyrics

[Intro: Mantra] I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you Ay I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you [Verse 1: Mantra] I felt my body seize up I'm frozen, I can't move I spent so long with darkness That shade was all I knew If only I knew How much I could control my own view And how much that shit Was bein' toxified by the likes of you [Chorus: Mantra] I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you When I was lookin' at you All I could see was storm clouds brewin' in the foreground I just never knew that they was comin' from you They was comin' from you That they was comin' from you [Post-Chorus: Thando] I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you At you [Verse 2: Mantra] State the obvious, I ain't never been an optimist Always figured happiness did not exist (Did not exist) I been at video stores Skip the romantic comedies but I can show you where the horrors is (Where the horrors is) I became your apologist Anything to keep from creatin' this horridness Ayo, it is what it is But I wish I hadda had the permission to see the positives I used to wile out, play the role in the night out Found myself in a black hole, so deep I couldn't climb out You tried to send me to my burial site My father was dyin' but I was bein' buried alive And after twenty-some years of bein' generous, I Couldn't forgive another minute of them venomous Still it nearly tore me apart to try to set 'em aside I guess that's a mark of the prison that you kept us inside How can one try to survive? No access to sunlight The [?] let slide by your bloodline And the one time I ever stepped forward onto the frontline Had to sacrifice everything to see my shackles untied You from a sick, sick, broken place But that ain't justify being unkind Still I'm in a different state of mind, my entire world shifted I think I'm finally startin' to unwind from lookin' at you [Chorus: Mantra, Mantra & Thando] I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you When I was lookin' at you All I could see was storm clouds brewin' in the foreground I just never knew that they was comin' from you They was comin' from you That they was comin' from you [Post-Chorus: Thando] I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you At you Lookin' at you I had my back to the sun when I was lookin' at you At you Lookin' at you [Outro: Mantra] I seen a father turn his back on a son I ain't gonna turn my back on my son, so long I've been Standin' with my back to the sun, yo, I'm turnin' back around And headin' back to the sun, headin' back