Feel Okay?

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm not interested in sex I was never sexually motivated I might've been attracted to doing things In a highly structured consensual way Was rarely that intimate And mostly screwed things up And sometimes you got a connection to People you only had planned to fuck [Verse 2] I'm not interested in drugs Not the recreational ones Mostly want to function But so far that's taken modern medicine It's like I wore a lab coat Each time I'd (air-quote) experiment (unquote) And it's not as much fun to find out Those bar fliеs aren't really your friends [Chorus] What do I want anymorе? To just get through each day Sex can be fun, even when on drugs But I'd rather feel okay [Verse 3] I'm sick of losing friends I can't remember each one that I miss I piece it back together every single morning Now I'm unable to quit Do I actually miss them Or was it time for us to cease? Did I hold on too tightly, did I chase them away By not acting selflessly? [Verse 4] I'm less interested in wax Vinyl records to be exact And even if you live in the same house as me You're probably surprised by that I'm tired of things I can't take With me when I pass Distractions are temporary Unlike the search for permanency [Chorus] I ask, what do I want anymore? To just get through each day Sex can be fun, even when on drugs But I'd rather feel okay What do I want anymore? To just get through each day Music and love and trust are nice But I'd rather feel okay