Confessions & Lessons

Lyrics

Whole life I've been living on 2 sides In my gramas eyes I'm perfect I'm just divine In the streets though my homies and I would do crimes Thank God I never got caught never did time Fortunate my lifestyle was torturing From the porch I hear gunshots they scorching here Dodge a few bullets went searching for more of it While these mothers be mourning I glad it wasn't my momma I'd never want to put her through all of that trauma Best did I ever did was get off the corner That shit was exciting in the lemon we riding Seek out niggas that's hiding cuz they jumped the homie so we got him Kinda glad that we ain't never find em was war ready had techs and a 9 and enough ammo to change up the climate ain't care bout the violence Yea my nigga we was wildin The cycle my people keep going through The bodies they chalk every week or two The families that's crying on evening news The blood on the concrete a rose just grew And it's sad it's a habit we have We get mad at a badge when they kill someone black But we dont wink an eye if the shooter is black We just talking and asking bout whens the pay back Panicking walking so cautious cuz you rep the same flag Might as well ride around with yo own body bag X nobody safe in the streets bruh the shit is sad facts X nothing but fury on the roads everybody mad max Came a shot away from being in gangs A phone call away from selling cocaine A wall between catching one in the brain A block away from dying on a thursday X a knock away from being shackled ...and chained X a stroke away from having a kid at 16 X a failure away from just losing my brain X a prayer away from just ending the pain X I remember what my family say X they said lil boy you better pray X you'll eventually see better days X faith will get you back on track if You ever stray X so I found a way to meditate X think about every move I made X took flight or more like levitate X took charge now I'm here to stay X pac told us stay strong there'll be better dayz My mother named me marc My uncle raised me hard 43rd street left me scarred Never thought I'd make it far Football ain't work out College ain't work out Banging ain't work out Loving ain't work out What I'm I to do now I was sitting in the house Watch porn then work out I was torn in and out Felt like I was in a cloud So I said it out loud And I liked the way it sound So I wrote my pain down Started crying out my mouth I found somebody to talk to Somebody to confide Somebody to ride with Somebody I never lied to Someone I could rely on To tell me when I was wrong To help me to stay strong Somebody to lean on Somebody to plead to Express all my dreams to To share all the bad news Somebody that never tells me to shut up Explained to me how my life has been set up When I'm at my lowest they told me to get up To hit the ground running and dont ever let up Now I really gotta make it The top spot ima take it Keep it real never fake it Introducing yall to greatness X these grey hairs been growin X that's just my wisdom showin X I thrive when I'm alone and X I'm fine that I'm my own X I'm really at my best when I'm sitting at home X thoughts looking for a way to escape from my dome X used to smoke jet fuel now I'm pumping the shit X used to view most girls for they ass and they tits X used to hit raw dog then call em a bitch X used to have a dirty gun I was clutching a sig X realized gun size still dont make you big X street cred nice buy it can't provide for yo kids X reputation means nothing they dont care what you did X every nigga aiming at you they gone test you ya dig X life of a thug nigga I done travelled that road X i was tryna emulate every trapper i know X i was losing my emotions man my heart was so cold X i was sipping on that potion cuz it made me feel bold X had an intuition found a purpose in my life X came to fruition that i ain't want pay the price X swear in my visions I saw grama bb twice X now I'm on a mission to make my wrongs all right