Shades of Jade

Lyrics

[Intro] LB, baby LB, baby [Verse 1] Uh, now people don't know all this But behind the performances and those poems I spit All the showmanship and those cold ass fits I struggle with extreme loneliness Overtures and bids To connect with folks, go unnoticed and miss I try holdin' it in Play close to the vest When I scroll through my phone, I notice all my closest friends Disappeared like the ocean mist The light along the coast, it grows so dim How do I cope with it? All those cliche ways you can think of Drink up one cup, 2 cups, 13 cups Link up with people beneath my frequency My inner circle got inner circles got inner circles like a tree trunk Thirst to be perfect, be worthy, be enough Hard to keep up I just keep adding beads on the string 'til I'm freed up And one day I'm healed up Pain and uncertainty are free, but peace takes effort, and we ain't guaranteed love [Chorus] Shades of jade Cloudy or clear Beads on a string Keep adding on Keep adding on [Verse 2] First of all, motherfuckas could narry be me Know how I know? I can barely be me Pretty as I am, witty as I am Some can't embrace what ethnicity I am Not everybody ready to mentally expand Get beyond whatever barrier they in Got called racial slurs every day from the age of four 'til I was of age to pour that creme liqueur By then, my spirit was scrapped and sore I thought fame was the cure for what I wasn't getting and the pain I endured Saw pops once a year but he ain't speak the language Moms problematic Unc's in the streets active I was caregiver, peacemaker, therapist of the family A lot for anyone, let alone a 10-year-old That's why show biz the perfect venue, though Hey, look at me, look how great I am, look how paid I am All the fame I have All of this is really a repayment plan 'Cause I needed fam to give that validation stamp I needed parenting, I needed security I might be in therapy, but I made it, man So while they debating who the best Asian this and that is Best LB statement Greatest piece of work I've ever created And recreated, and keep creating, and repeat daily It's LB, baby LB, baby [Chorus] Shades of jade (LB, baby) Cloudy or clear Beads on a string Keep adding on Keep adding on [Interlude] Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh (LB, baby) Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh (LB, baby) Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh (LB, baby) Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (LB, baby) (LB, baby) (LB, baby) (LB, baby) (LB, baby) [Chorus] Shades of jade Cloudy or clear (Go on and change your mind again) Beads on a string Keep adding on Keep adding on Day after day Cloudy or clear (Go on and change your mind again) Beads on a string Keep adding on Keep adding on