Pastels

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I dream in pastels My sheep different colors to the background Never fitting in, but never quite clearer Shocked at my reflection when I look into the mirror Lost it all in the seconds, better bet I'm still in fear of summer's last days Trudging on throughout the winter with a sad face I could keep all of my feelings in a glass case I know they'll throw stones at With hatred in their voice and off they claim they're spitting cold facts I'm just the last to win I burnt myself down to the dust and left the ash to wind I call it passion but imagine after asking yourself a few hundred times if you'd be sure you could do this for life, right Talk is cheap so these lyrics must be pennies worth Hope it adds up to a fortune when I'm in the dirt Dust myself up off the ground From my endless fall The person that I used to be just wasn't Ben at all So now I'm pissed off Never been awkward but I still talk Like I don't wanna be heard My decibel level is quite inaudible The habit makes everybody ask me, "Who you talking to?" I guess I'm anxious I guess I wanna make this music but I hate it later Safe to say I want to make it but I'm staving off the fakest parts of making art Change my mind, and change my heart 'bout how I see these labels' cards My bank is empty, need that green or else I'm thrifting until I make it far So cruel regardless of whether I sell my soul I just hope my lack of patience doesn't take control, yo [Chorus] I hear the birds chirping I see the sun rising I watch the world going round and round without me now I know my friends calling Stuck in my head, falling I'll rest my curls, peep the ceiling fan go round about