I’ve Changed

Lyrics

[Verse 1: LL Cool J] Just starin' at these four walls closin' In on me, feelin' like time's frozen Fadin' in and out, noddin' and dozin' Guilt tearin' up my brain like erosion What I did to you was wrong, I admit it I regret that I did it like a junkie when he's jonesin' All alone in what used to be a home But you packed up our joy in that bag you put your clothes in The voicemail that you left me was scaldin' Hot enough to burn a hole in a cauldron 'Cause it was all true, that's why we all through Now your girl's pickin' up the cell when I call you (She don't wanna talk to you) Talkin' slick like, "She ain't here She don't want you no more, punk, disappear," click I need to hit her with a brick But that'll only lead me to a worse predicament I hope your girlfriend ain't got you on a liquor binge With her bitter attitude just cause she's sick of men But I'ma keep on callin', fightin' 'til the end On my knees 'til they bleed to prove my love again [Chorus: Ryan Toby] I sit in front of your crib in the pourin' rain Wildin' out, screamin' your name And keepin' ringin' your bell 'til you mad as hell And call the po-po, I ain't afraid You can get your folks and your cousins and them And try to run me off your block, uh But I ain't scared, I ain't goin' nowhere And I ain't stoppin' 'til I gotcha to show you I changed, shawty [Verse 2: LL Cool J] I seen you at the movies with some tall cat So I bust his headlights with a ball bat When I was with you, he would give me dap and all that Now you in his arms in the mall, what you call that? That's what I get for creepin' and crawlin' Every other weekend gone until the mornin' Sneakin' out to my dirt, dead wrong Comin' back past dawn with the guilty mask on And I never counted the cost, took heed to warnings Try to hurt a rose, you get pricked by a thorn and It don't feel nice when you wake up nights Shakin' in cold sweats and your whole life's a wreck That was the old me, the one I still regret The one you couldn't respect, the one you should forget But I'ma keep on callin', fightin' 'til the end On my knees 'til they bleed to prove my love again [Chorus: Ryan Toby] I sit in front of your crib in the pourin' rain Wildin' out, screamin' your name And keepin' ringin' your bell 'til you mad as hell And call the po-po, I ain't afraid You can get your folks and your cousins and them And try to run me off your block, uh But I ain't scared, I ain't goin' nowhere And I ain't stoppin' 'til I gotcha to show you I changed, shawty [Post-Chorus: Ryan Toby & LL Cool J] Show you I changed, shawty I really did change, shawty (I'm tellin' you, I changed!) I wanna show you I changed, shawty (I still love you!) [Verse 3: LL Cool J] I don't care if the cops got me surrounded SWAT teams, whatever, tell 'em to send the hounds in My mind's in an altered state Like I'm headed for a wall, top speed, foot off the brake I make a fool of myself, girl, whatever it takes I already played the fool when I let you escape You're as good as it gets, your friendship, your sex Everything about you and yours connects From your beautiful smile to the scent of your skin The sheets smell different, this is not livin' It feels like dyin', God knows I'm tryin' Ain't no sight sadder than a grown man cryin' Please find it in your heart to forgive me Realize only God can convict me We all make mistakes, so have you If God show mercy on me, then you should too [Chorus: Ryan Toby] I sit in front of your crib in the pourin' rain Wildin' out, screamin' your name And keepin' ringin' your bell 'til you mad as hell And call the po-po, I ain't afraid You can get your folks and your cousins and them And try to run me off your block, uh But I ain't scared, I ain't goin' nowhere And I ain't stoppin' 'til I gotcha to show you I changed, shawty [Post-Chorus: Ryan Toby & LL Cool J] Show you I changed, shawty (I'm tellin' you, I changed!) I really did change, shawty I wanna show you I changed, shawty (I still love you!) [Outro: Ryan Toby & LL Cool J] Oh (I'm tellin' you, I changed!)