Lyrics

[Verse] All the stuff I'm going through, I gotta figure out by myself I ain't got no deal for these raps, had to sign myself I keep pouring Henny in my cup and it kinda helps Smoking all this Cali even though I know health is wealth Walked out the gate and I'm just thinking 'bout getting paid Ask me if I'm good, I say "Better than yesterday" Open up the windows in the crib, let it ventilate I just smoked out the place with some haze, tryna meditate Talking real UK rap, you know your boy gonna demonstrate Heard one of them niggas died, you know your boy gonna celebrate How this fuck boy say that I left him in the beef? Like it's my fault he's getting caught slipping every week I came home popped down but that ain't no pressure G I'm feeling like Catch, you know me, I'ma press the T Niggas say I shoulda blown, I don't like to talk on it 'cause they're right And deep down I know I should have got more from this Kai's transferring good energy when I'm hugging him I try keep a brave face, I know he sees that I'm struggling Before I leave the hood, my road brothers just tell me "Stay safe" It's crazy 'cause I feel the studio is my only safe place As a teen, I felt mum didn't half care But if that was the case then she really made up for it last year 'Cause she can feel my vibe on the days time didn't fly All them convos on the blue phone, tryna keep my spirit high We grew in the trenches, we was young, we had lost minds Now I'm cooling with my son, tryna make up for lost time Niggas don't show their face again when they cross the line 'Cause I go whoosh the nine then go wash the nine Too many years in the trenches just out here dealing Henny in my cup and it's helping me fight the demons Watch my kids sleeping, it's helping me find some meaning We just got the get-back for bro, now I'm finally grieving Kai's turning ten next and I'm back changing nappies I hope my first BM find someone that can make her happy Don't know how she did it on her own, I respect the G She don't let nobody close, I know she protecting me It's rainy days, my new baby mums ain't pissed with me But I'm feeling like she's the one for me so it's bittersweet Boy, I gotta use no hands and move this parcel Going probation, praying they don't want a urine sample If my life was a movie on the screen then I'm at that bit One song away, could change my whole life, get the mandem lit I tell the plug "I'm chilling for a second, just cancel it" I've probably 'ready made about a mill and just ran through it If the opp block was on the same route, we just span through it Leave a body over there, yeah, you know the way gang do it The street shit got my heart froze but no complaining In the Louis store, overspending and overcompensating