Lyrics

[Intro] Yo [Verse 1] Before I lose my mental I'll get this off my chest still Before I crash this rental Before I crash this— Uh Please understand, I'm a man and this shit's detrimental But all I know is gentle, so why you temperamental? You could just leave and I'll grieve under someone like you Am I naive to deceive? So I write this haiku You're right, and I do know those rules apply to Other guys the type who only know to spite you [Chorus] Closer to mе I want to be the one Closеr to me I want to be the one Closer to me I want to be the one Closer to me I want to be the one For me I want to be the one For me I want to be the one [Verse 2] Sending shivers down my spine just as I wrote this line But I've tried to die a thousand times I wish my mind was mine, I wish you'd see the signs Doesn't matter any more, fam, I'm good, I'm fine Still calm out here, yet I will live in fear Of maybe hurting myself or probably someone else These thoughts will creep up in stealth, my mind's forgotten Hell Or maybe my lack in wealth is why I'm lacking help Nah, the support is there, but I refuse to share Pride is the only thing that I won't spare Kinda feeling the pressure to stop this thing from festering Am I the joke? Yo, am I the jester? It's not black or white, I think I've lost connection Did I forget to mention now I ignore your mentions? I think I need exemption from the narrative I write I hope the ends in sight [Chorus] For me I want to be the one For me I want to be the one [Outro] What is the worst part of being in love? That's a— That's a really good question, um I think it's going through breakups on your own As men, we're not really taught to love or how to be loved So it's a conversation we— we never have with each other And so when we do go through breakups It's usually on— on your own I think it's the vulnerability I think no one wants to go to thier group of mates and be like "Yo, man, my heart is broken," haha It— It sounds funny, man, but it's— hahahaha Oh my God