Lyrics

​[Intro] I'm up, I'm up I'ma be honest for this track Entirely honest I'm trying to speak with my soul And not my ego I'm an asshole so I'll try at least [Verse] Never learned how to open up my true feelings in real life Because, outside my family, I'll never find out what true love feels like Maybe if my insecurities ain't eat me inside, I wouldn't be doing this I decided for this album that I'd be true to this Comparing my behind-the-scenes with everyone else's highlight reels Maybe if I would've focused on school than "she might like me" Hate myself more than anyone else, my own harshest critic Living without limits isn't really honest living Always knew in mind I could do much more Too bad society's built to tell niggas like me "fuck yours" Insecurities too complex to jot down on the fucking paper All the Ricks, talking shit, Dirty Sanchez, until they want some fucking favors Always thought I'd be a Yankees S.P. winning rings and ESPYs If he saw what I've become, maybe pops would've never left me Juice with me, why I've been trying even harder to concentrate, shit Tell these Caracas niggas at the traffic stops to stop the spraying Growing more and more paranoid of my friends I can't avoid what is meant, I'm hearing voices and shit Hell, I'm doing this for something, even though I don't force nothing Niggas out here will maul you to see if your wallet store something Blank pages stacking in my thoughts Black people blacking out due to cops Old me is my biggest enemy Might fuck around and try to forget on that on a one-way trip to LSD Don't contact me on the business account unless we talking business Talk with niggas, see if they rhymes ain't half-assed and all precision Teeter-tottering on the edge of completely fucking losing my mind They say I'm too tight with the homies, that's why I'm loose with the rhymes You don't want the relationships, if all I'm doing is chasing chips To me, commitment and true love is seen as less than hot naked chicks Setting precedents for my niggas in VZ, thinking of running On top of the throne, but at times, I'm thinking of jumping