Alone

Lyrics

[Intro One: The Education of Sonny Carson] 'What they gives you, blood?' 'Three months, man.' 'Whatchu doin in here anyway? You oughta be home with your momma. How old are you boy?' 'Thirteen.' 'Thirteen? Damn, the bastards must be runnin' outta niggas to arrest.' [Verse 1: Kur] Check, my life fucked up Can't complain a lot of times I done fucked up Had tough luck, I ain't have enough love Plenty nights I went to sleep ain't have enough grub Or I ain't eat at all Niggas couldn't live my life Nowhere to go, sleeping outside I did that twice No toilet paper, used socks, did that some nights What the fuck did I do make me live so trife I need heat at night My stomach growl it wake me up, how I sleep at night The wet aroma in the air, how I breathe at night Everything that's in the dark gon see that light So Imma see that light I wanted to walk just like you Wanted to talk just like you Wanted to smoke wet and dip Ports, just like you Heard you fuckin niggas for money, c'mon that's not you Damn, I really hope that that's not true I know Jamie feel left out too I gotta be her brother, her father, I gotta step up too Sometimes I rather see you dead, than to see you alive I hate you, cause most the times you was the reason I cried Most of the times you was the reason that I hated myself On my own, can't wait to say I made it myself When I was down and needed you, you never came to give help You should be ashamed of yourself But I ain't pointing fingers Man what happened to my mom, you like a fucking stranger But I still love you more than life, and I can't fucking change it Just know I got us, we'll be good when I get fucking famous When I get fucking famous It's like God don't care It's like some nights I can't call on him I don't trust a soul, even my mom called the law on me Told them I was trapping, that's the night I had jars on me Why you wanna see your only son with a charge on him [Verse 2: Dot] Dear mom, I used to blame you for the time you missed But just know I still love you And dear daddy, for some years you had a nigga sick But just know I still love you Cause my struggle only made me stronger I made it through the abuse, through the tears, through the hunger I remember nights when I couldn't sleep Hoping you would finally come around and tell me you could take me home But that was only but a dream, no reality in sight A lot of times I wanted to end my life, but I kept the pushing I was truly just a lost soul No love, didn't even have a stable place to call home When I looked in the mirror I seen a blank face And in my heart I can really feel it crying A lot of deep emotion, a lot of things that I was feeling Wondering how the fuck could you leave your son alone In these places where these people only cared about a check And had me eating grease out the bottom of the pan And them fresh ass whoopings when you jumping out the tub You know the one with the baby oil rubbed all on the belt And I was only five I used to wish ya would've fucking saved me Would've held me tight and raised me like your baby Would've been around and watched me grow into a man But Im older now, I'm in the world, and now I understand