Lyrics

[Verse 1: Complete] What am I? I'm the reason ya often cry When ya wanna try sleep but I'm keeping ya occupied Deep in ya noggin, I proceed with some rotten lies Even got you believing you ain't leading a proper life You need to just drop and die, you wouldn't be missed You just winge and be sooky, everybody thinks you're a pussy ya bitch I heard he cut himself he couldn't resist He should have just slit his own throat, it would have been good if he did You've put in a bit of effort to try and improve But ya head and ya mind? Forever a mind to abuse Sessions with psychs and medicine lightens ya mood But ya know at any given second I might just intrude Whatever the time I mess with ya life when I choose You have no friends so instead you rely on the booze Now ya writing a few suicide letters But ya just rip em up 'cause you forget who ya writing 'em to Too tired to move, ya sweat as ya hide in ya room Under ya doona ya still in bed if its night or its noon Ya shut the blinds and you accept you've decided to lose Protected from light, you ain't letting its vitamins through This is it, there's no separate vice you can use You recognise the biggest threat to your life has been you My name's depression I don't get or supply you the noose I'm just a bruise left on ya neck when it's tied to the roof [Chorus: Bitter Belief, Kogz, Both] It's just another night that I feel lonely (lonely, lonely) And it's keeping me down, down, down Down, down, down (And I feel so!) It's just another night that I feel lonely (lonely, lonely) And it's keeping me down, down, down Down, down, down (And I feel so!) [Verse 2: Bitter Belief] Awoken from a coma by a door knock It's her son tryna get in but the doors locked He's just worrying knowing his mum is complicated Every single conversation with her hits a sore spot Clouded with emotion, surrounded by fear Looking for a rope drowning in her tears As down as she appears she realistically is Self loathing, hoping that she can fill up the fridge for her kids But she can't, she sits in the dark Her wrists and her arms have slits and marks As she can't, escape the misery dwelling and hate and pity She's never facing the fact, she's numb with the venerability Instability strikes, what's the price of validity Feeling like she never did any right, this is why She's gone broke she hopes for the life She wants most for now it's beans on toast for both these kids Or dry wheetbix it needs fixing Children can't eat like this, and she just Misses the man, she saw leave Pops another pill in her hand, she needs more sleep And falls weak to the substance, rubs the lamp Makes wishes for her mum and dad, maybe they could understand What she has, what she hasn't, what she's battled When she's looking down the barrel and praying maybe the gun will jam On her, she feels like this Like every single day this is real life shit Tight fist that she clenches, remembering the past Death to her memories, rescue remedy, uh! [Chorus: Bitter Belief, Kogz, Both] It's just another night that I feel lonely (lonely, lonely) And it's keeping me down, down, down Down, down, down (And I feel so!) It's just another night that I feel lonely (lonely, lonely) And it's keeping me down, down, down Down, down, down (And I feel so!) [Verse 3: Kogz] Ya wanna know what it's like with depression? Take a little ride in my mind for second I fight with myself, the cycle is endless I write 'cause it helps but the silence it deafens I definitely hide when it's time for attention Tension is high as I slice through my tendons I'm barely alive don't like my reflection I'm stressed all the time yet I hide and suppress it I felt as the walls close, knelt as the halls rose Watched as my whole world stopped and it all froze Frost bitten scared yeah I watched as the door closed Not yet aware that I lost where I call home I felt lonely, I wept on my lonesome The only one left in the depths of my ocean I hope for a prayer yet nobody hears me Like nobodys there yet I spoke to them clearly I'm nothing, barely can I cope at all Hopeless my emotions only show through my broken doors Maybe I should sober up, basically a vacant shell Maybe I could show some love if only though I hate myself Everydays hell I feel like I've gone nuts House full of people yet feel like my doors shut Drowning in more drugs swallowing the hallowing Sound of just me tryna scream with my cords cut It's so easy to lose myself I just sink piss, think this booze might help Till I'm thinking, who's this dude I've become, too Dumb to admit that he's blues have won I'm lost! [Chorus: Bitter Belief, Kogz, Both] It's just another night that I feel lonely (lonely, lonely) And it's keeping me down, down, down Down, down, down (And I feel so!) It's just another night that I feel lonely (lonely, lonely) And it's keeping me down, down, down Down, down, down (And I feel so!)