Intro

Lyrics

[First Verse] My intuition tell me we in danger Mary and liquor turned me to a slave, yeah Broke off the shackles but can't hide the pain no I just want the pain to go away Grandma dementia turned me to a stranger She on the meds, she lookin' spacey Moment of clarity she told me baby I just want the pain to go away, like Heaven was missing an angel They say you changing I say they crazy I see the same Big mamma taught me everything, you know How to love, how to sing On my neck I etch your namе That won't ever fade away This pеrfection we be chasin' You the closest thing to it Introduce myself to you like 'You ain't used to let me sleep in your room when thunderstorms used to freak me out, and you would just sing me gospel songs till I passed out. Showed me what unconditional love was all about.' [Second Verse] First memory domestic violence Mamma drove herself to the hospital Ain't nobody take this shit like I did Used to want the whole world to feel like I'm feeling Back when daddy said he lost his mind And we so alike that's a terrifying feeling Never used to see eye to eye Thats ironic cuz i got your eyes nigga Face broke into a million pieces And they left a scar behind just to haunt me Imagine talkin' to your crush with war wounds She lookin' at you like a fuckin monster Finally ready to talk about it Ay, finally ready to talk about it Ay, finally ready to talk about it Finally ready to talk about it Ay, finally ready to talk about it [Third Verse] Oh lord, won't you send me some peace Cause ain't no kumbaya here I promise Chacha tuition to Harvard, look So I can't die here She used to praise the ground I walked on Can time heal the damage I did in my absence? When I shut down and pushed them all away Cause I couldn't cope Ain't seen my auntie since the stroke Can't even look her in her eyes or Justify why I went ghost Big mamma's funeral, the final time we spoke No family ties, I walk that rope Can I rebuild the bonds I broke? Can I be free when the fours pop up? Realign my home, realize my goals Try find my soul, try to clear my conscious Why the new shit a little more honest? I want my auntie to walk again Holidays never gon' be the same Tryna be stronger for mamma nem Tears streaming down her face so contagious Matriarchs in my bloodline Working double time tryna cover pain Pops around never put him down Wish I coulda seen em both everyday I had mamma when I needed daddy I had daddy when I needed mamma Never had a voice, never had a say, never had a choice I found a platform to free all my pain I'm on that block and I'm showing my brave You look away when you run into satan I look that fuck nigga right in his face Fear is illogical, fear is impossible Fuck is you talkin' to? God in my veins I done been shot at boy I think I died and came back as a prophet But I just can't tell I just can't tell I done been right on the edge Like fuck it boy I'm bout' to end it all Phone ringin' on the edge of the bed I'd prolly be dead if he didn't call Can't get these thoughts out me head High and dry but I can never fall High and dry but I can never fall Know my face prolly say it all