Nomad

Lyrics

[Chorus] I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home [Verse 1] As my adversaries become dead and buried, I'm alone I'm preparing the obituary, but it's bittersweet that they're gone At the moment, I got too much time for over analyzin' all my flaws Stress-eating all this Ben & Jerry's, Obey Shepard Fairey need a cause I just want to roll, I just want to go I pack my bags, but jet lag keeps me slow I don't know what I should keep and let go I don't know who I am down to my soul [Chorus] I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home I don't know a place right now that I belong I don't know a place right now that feels like home [Verse 2] Shit ain't been the same since 2012 I felt that hell Hot summer, as I had to sleep on Jason's floor All my belongings in a bag, know what I hated more My family evicted, couldn't go back to college 'cause I owed some tuition For taking a leave of absence the prior semester Father swore that I was flunkin' out When he refused to send me money on the phone, I started buggin' out Then we ain't talk for like two years, till my sister's graduation My friends lacked empathy for my dire situation Not a man, but had to man up Find a loft apartment in Brooklyn, a small room, I couldn't stand up Had a girlfriend that loved me for who I was Little did she know, he was tryna find who he is If I could take it back, I don't know if I'd do it different But she punched me in the stomach, broke up wit' her, ate the tears This might be the first time, I've detailed the worst times Now I feel old as fuck, can't get back the years I'm cryin' as I write these words "Black Pearl", tryna fight this curse It gets harder tryna write these songs When I can't even name a thing that I really fucking care about Used to think home was the place you called your 'parent's house'- I was fuckin' wrong And I know that line gon' trigger my mother But if home is where the heart is, and I'm supposed to be a smart kid Why do I keep looking in these places I get carded? Liquor makes me a bad friend Drinkin' makes me feel like giving up the admin of my whole life I'm not feelin' fine anymore My family isn't mine anymore Rhode Island isn't mine anymore, New York isn't mine anymore Big Apple and I'm dyin' at the core [Outro] Fuck!