Tower of Sadness

Lyrics

[Intro: JFK Secrecy Speech] For we are opposed around the world By a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy That relies primarily on covert means For expanding its sphere of influence on infiltration Instead of invasion On subversion instead of elections On intimidation instead of free choice On guerrillas by night instead of armies by day [Verse 1] What are the causes and the seeds of depression? Who's ultimately affected? These are the questions We all stand guilty and in need of a blessing So we weave through the scriptures to read as a reference Foundations were laid years ago etched in Neglect and rejection sent you in that direction Your heart was exposed with no type of protection The innocence you displayed was met with aggression Lethal Injection to my trust of the masses In the vein of my good side, the needle was cast in Seeking to find peace in an hour of madness Tryna stop adding bricks to my tower of sadness Every day the hurt builds, deeper and deeper it drills Nobody is understanding so I keep it concealed All these artificial people say they're keeping it real False happiness in alcohol, reefer and pills, come on [Chorus] Tryna find my way through all this darkness in my life In the meantime until that day, I keep running towards that light And even if I don't succeed, at least I know I did my best All day long I keep on running 'til I reach that happiness (Happiness) [Verse 2] They sit watching me closely, hesitant to approach me Hoping that I'll let a professional diagnose me Instead of communicating, they wait to sedate me Making me deflate to unsafely medicate me And turn me to a vegetable with anti-depressants, bro A cocktail of Paxil, Zoloft and Lexapro The Prozac and Cymbalta make my moods alter Not only mentally but my physical started to falter So hard, O Lord, no money, no job Won't starve. Options: sell dope, go rob Can't seem to get no peace of mind, it's so Chaotic and frustrating, borderline schizo Deal with it, get help, must make a fast choice Conversations in my head, good voice, bad voice "Don't jump", "Jump now", somebody come help me I just wish that me and my own head would accept me [Chorus] Tryna find my way through all this darkness in my life In the meantime until that day, I keep running towards that light And even if I don't succeed, at least I know I did my best All day long I keep on running 'til I reach that happiness (Happiness) [Verse 3] Mindstate not good, hurting since childhood Over time your heart got harder than plywood Trying to avert war, peace is what you search for Abuse from your parents constructed the first flaw From love they disarmed you, the drugs only harm you The mental facilities they build don't reform you Every night you fight to not use the rifle Your offspring heirs is the generational cycle If tears coulda come out my eyes I would have been crying They must be going backward and drowning me from the inside Depression is testing, me a real problem I might have Stress is the ocean and I'm floating on a life raft Prayers in my head but I'm too shook to dial one Everybody claim they got faith until the trial come Long as you live, you gon' have to face a lot of tests You can take God all day with no side effects [Chorus] Tryna find my way through all this darkness in my life In the meantime until that day, I keep running towards that light And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best All day long I keep on running 'til I reach that happiness (Happiness)