Suicide Note

Lyrics

[Verse 1: K-Rino] To whom it may concern, I apologize for everything I've done And all the trouble that I caused, all my humanistic flaws And the problems I've probably put all my people through Inner peace was unattainable, the pain was unexplainable Too deep for you, I'm sitting here wearing a suit never been worn Blaming myself for world problems, wishing I'd never been born In a state of deep depression, for my soul ain't no lifting Flashing back about life about moves that I would have made different I heard it said that taking your own life is selfish And never dealt with what I dealt with, struggle to felt this helpless And it's my life, so I choose whether to cancel or save But on the other hand what right do I have to take something that God gave I'm pretty sure there's some people in the grave that died young That would love to still be in the game with breath inside lungs But I'm sorry to disappoint them huh, but in all modesty I'm about to terminate my policy and end this odyssey [Hook] After my last quote, that's all she wrote I'm just sitting here proof reading my suicide note [Verse 2: K-Rino] How shall I kill me, let me count the ways I've been devising and contemplating murder methods for days Should I take a bottle of pills, drift off and never wake up Thrust myself from a bridge and break up my bodily make up Should I prop my back against the wall and pop my gat To forcefully extract exploding brain material or visit Doctor Jack To get a lethal dose of arsenic, injected in my heart, causing it To pause when high poison gets off in it But then again another killing plan that I'm feeling, man Is to rope my neck then stand on a chair then dangle from the ceiling fan Or take some gas since expiration is fast, heads thrown But now I'm about to make my own future the past tense So I'ma write this note and leave this Earth By the time y'all read this I can see that tryna save me' will be needless 'Cause yesterday I felt terrific, but the world is wealth addicted Injected depressive thoughts, now my wounds are self-inflicted [Verse 3: K-Rino] In my room, my mind made up, no chance for survival Past suicidal, on my bed is a Quran and a Bible But it's too dark to read 'cause all I've got is a candle lit I can't handle it, phone been ringing all night but I ain't answered it Huh, I got my Sam Cooke CD on About to satisfy all the snakes and hypocrits who wanna see me gone That's when I turn the TV on And I noticed the needy woman living on the streets with 2 children, without a home Watching the news, I see a lady breaking down Over a chalk line on the ground where her sons body was found Eliminated by a bullet from a cops gun I'm witnessing wars where bombs killed inoccent people when they drop one And folks appreciate life for what it is And little kids laughing just made me realsie I wanna live Now I'm grateful for my life and every breath I ever took Now I can fold this letter up and place it in my Black Book