Endless Dream

Lyrics

[Verse 1] And I— Thought I found The one for me Oh my God I remember so many firsts I never aspired to see an end To you, my dear You were my everything All I could ever ask God for Why the fuck did He take her away from me? Have I not suffered enough? All the neglect... A family ain't shit— People that can't comprehend the pain inside my brain Yes, I'm mentally ill — so what? Wanna lock me away? Go ahead and judge Say it's a figment of my own imagination Yes, I sip lean But I can't even get high nowadays Without feeling like I'm being looked down upon No shoulders to cry to No ears to hear my cries With similar belief akin to mine Oh, how much I hurt— [Bridge] Inside Inside She was the only one that made me feel alright And yet, you took her away from me In the blink of an eye [Verse 2] So tell me— What the fuck did I do to deserve all this pain? Some days I really do hope I never wake up From this endless dream that's nothing but nightmare Every good comes to an end Damn... all I got is my friend But lately even he's been going through some shit too A girl ripped his heart out and fed it to him After all he did to her Many lessons you threw our way Might you say… I don't mean to take my frustrations out on you But what the fuck do you expect me to do? [Verse 3] After all this time I don't think I can carry on any longer I don't mean to blame anyone but myself I guess I could be stronger When I'm down low... But oh God, how much I hurt inside This time, I wave the white flag I have no army I think it's time I call it quits And turn off the lights [Outro] Sorry mother, I couldn't be there for you Even though you always made me feel Like I wasn't enough Sorry father, for not being the son you wanted Despite neglecting me my whole life I chose the path I thought would make me feel alright